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YouTube - TV Gackt Talk in Asia Song Festival 2009 2009 09 19

2010-10-22T02:38:00.000+08:00

YouTube - TV Gackt Talk in Asia Song Festival 2009 2009 09 19
LOL. SNSD behind the almight Gackt sama~
They don't pay attention well huh?

Fictional Tragedy under the silver moonlight

2010-10-18T20:53:00.003+08:00

"you know about plastic surgery right?"
"you know how fugly people can undergo the knife and become ravishing?"
"you're really pretty, long flowy hair, busty chest, s-line figure, just somehow, I think something is missing."
"don't worry, i'll make you so beautiful he'll never get tired of you and you will have your happy ending."
"after all, you stole him from me, you must really love him."
"you trust in my tastes right?"
"why are you looking at me like that?"
"you wouldn't happen to think I'm weird would you?"
"a slit here and a cut there."
"you looking so enticing I wouldn't bear to let him have you now..."

under the silver moonlight, a silent cry for help was not heard. within a rundown old shack in the forest, a youth was murdered by her best friend. driven by jealousy, driven by hatred, evil knows no bounds.

Fictional Tragedy under the silver moonlight

2010-10-18T20:48:00.001+08:00

"you know about plastic surgery right?"
"you know how fugly people can undergo the knife and become ravishing?"
"you're really pretty, long flowy hair, busty chest, s-line figure, just somehow, I think something is missing."
"dont worry, ill make you so beautiful he'll never get tired of you and you will have your happy ending."
"after all, you stole him from me, you must really love him."
"you trust in my tastes right?"
"why are you looking at me like that?"
"you wouldn't happen to think I'm weird would you?"
"a slit here and a cut there."
"you looking so enticing I wouldn't bear to let him have you now..."

under the silver moonlight, a silent cry for help was not heard. within a rundown old shack in the forest, a youth was murdered by her vest friend. driven my jealousy, driven by hatred, evil knows no bounds.

Diet. How rare is that

2010-10-11T00:14:00.001+08:00

So finally I realize that fact that I am eating too much. From a while ago, I've gained about 2 plus kg. Must be all the binging... today, I had relatively safe portions. One Onigiri + less than half a packet of instant noodles for breakfast. One piece of honey dew for lunch, one large bowl of clam chowder plus chicken salad for dinner. I know, more meals, smaller portions. I'll start that regime tomorrow. For now I need to go grab a Mcflurry from McDonald's :D

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new blog, like ONCE MORE

2009-11-07T20:08:00.001+08:00

BUTABARA

new blog~

2009-08-31T17:08:00.000+08:00

new blog

im selling cookies tomorrow~ please support :D

2009-08-30T22:03:00.002+08:00

been a long time since i've found an english band/song/whatever that i appreciate.

and on friday i served my rightful, well-deserved [NOT] detention. by the time i stepped in, people were about halfway through with their's and why? because hmt noobsters like me are released only at 1.30 while the rest of the school is released at 12.30. cool sia? and i even attempted to get my eclipse for some good drama during my boring detention but swuay lah. library in use and so i ended up reading about a dog who supposedly possesses a human soul who witnesses the nasty deeds of his master all too often and uses the word fuck. how thrilling~ . . . after a while this big guy was told to shift his table forward and he ended up asking me to do his chinese composition. he first started with are you chinese? could i say i was not? then shoved the paper in my face asking if i knew how to. why the fuck would i do someone else's homework when i don't even do my own? seriously. he needs a brain check but he was this notorious face whom i remember as a gangster and so i pretended to try and read it. DOH. no one asks me to do stuff for them kk? even if you are obama unless you're paying me good only then i'll think about it. fine, whatever. and so, long after everyone left, i finally was ready to leave. so much time wasted...

this morning i woke from a strange dream. i somehow ended up at my beloved's house. yes, bernice will know who it is, and yet the house wasn't what it was probably supposed to be. it was a shophouse thing and was rundown and he had lots of siblings. apparently i even got to use the showerrr~ WHOOO~! strange. does that says something's going to happen? something i can look forward to? something from my perversed fantasies? *dazed smileee~*

E-LEARNING

2009-08-27T23:02:00.002+08:00

今天我下午一点多才起床。真爽，能够睡到那么晚真让我有一丝丝的满足感。
今天是E-LEARNING我却到了3点多才开始做。随便啦，有做到老师们就要感谢天地了喽。
科学我们得做关于性叫的一些东西。
做了还真不自在。
英文做了个宣传报。
之后的功课不是用上网做的所以我也最后放弃，不做了。
反正我也习惯了被老师罚，被老师骂，要不然找同学抄喽。
今天看了TWILIGHT。
虽然没有我想的精彩不过没关系，我看了书就好因为我的想象力还真不错，画面还蛮真实。
看完了NEW MOON我就忍不住想要知道之后发生什么了便跑去找所谓的SPOILER。
知道之后是怎样我也就有那么一点点地安了。
希望这样做不会影响到之后看书的乐趣。。。

edward cullen

2009-08-26T23:33:00.003+08:00

in the story, edward cullen sounds so much like Gackt. vampric beauty and all. able to do just about anything too. but the movie's edward seems, a bit disappointing. anything but beautiful i guess. and the acting feels strange. i ain't no pro but i know how to pick my hawtties~

and so today i teasingly said,

'you call you gorgor beat me? i'll kick you gorgor's 叮叮当，叮叮当，应声多闪亮~ let you gorgor become didi lehh~'

that ain't no sound that crude right? not in my opinion. it was pretty round-about anyway.

tomorrow is e-learning. whoopee. i've been dozing off in class too much lately. need my beauty sleep. LOL. all pandora saga's fault. then twilight's fault too. now reading new moon. the chapter i'm at now says about jacob being a werewolf. no sign of edward appearing soon. he should appear soon. i need some romantic fantasy please~ makes me embarressed reading it in class. makes me smile with retardence too. sigh, what fantasies do to my puny little brain~

life's tough but i'm tougher - pauline sama

2009-08-21T23:56:00.003+08:00

and this is my beloved evange.
profile - race: human, class: warrior

sighh. so some things happened today. firstly, i reran my napfa. i so totally forgot to get my timing. oh well. and alicia apparently had water in her lungs and then dear ms shining fretted over people blaming her for being a retard and not dashing straight to the teachers the moment that happened. gosh, she's worries too much. one of my life motto is if anything happens 'it's all their fault, not mine :D', call it irresponsibility, i don't care. i live my life to please myself and no one else. if they wanna blame you, so be it, _|_ them to hell, what matters is you did what you could, the rest's history. so dear shining, take it easy and stop worrying about 2012 too. live your life to the max, do what you can, spending half your life fretting over death is retardism...

during chinese rance somehow managed to flame mdm zhong. goshh, she looked like she was about to explode. rance pro...

had guides. and dear ms shitass flamed us, again. actually, all the ma'ams. apparently we were worse than usual, can't help it, we're exhausted and not programmed tamagochi's who dance to your tune, i mean, even they need sleep and food and crap to perform right? much less us. flaming us ain't not gonna do good to you or me. shitass' got this bad habit of looking you straight in the eye and flaming you like there's no one else around and expecting you to give her a reply for her _|_ and how do you do that, reply with some other _|_? ... she should grow some brains or i'll have to shove some down her throat.

at the end of the day we ended better. all happy and motivated i guess.

just finished playing pandora saga. i guess warrior's better than mage. i think i might have to delete poor elfeen. played with bernice and met her beloved cheestard. goshh. he somehow knew me. either bernice has been saying stuff to him or i'm just ass-holey notorious in e4 for being bernice's oh so faithful friend to be disposed of as you like... his avatar was as big as his, as his, nickname. LOL

ps: actually, after not drawing for a while i had some nice drawings these few days, must scan them soon~ :D

FREEBiES FROM STGCC

2009-08-17T16:21:00.003+08:00

first bookmark was a freebie from a booth selling hetalia bookmarks. the next one in line is one of the bookmarks and was donated to me because julia and bernice both thought it was obscene. tsktsk. discrimination of french. not good. last one is given to us by mr 'OH SHIT'.

RIP JASMiNE YOU

2009-08-15T20:01:00.002+08:00

apparently Jasmine You's funeral was on the 12th of august and apparently Kamijo's comfirmed his death and that it is no hoax. how could this happen...

good news,. BAD NEWS.

2009-08-15T11:05:00.002+08:00

In 2009 JAPAN will set its attention to the WORLD!
We proudly present this year’s Festival of Festivals!
In October 2009 more than 50 artists will participate
in the world’s largest visual-kei festival ever…V-ROCK!

For two days on four stages Makuhari Messe will be transformed into sacred ground.
More than 50 bands from overseas and Japan will provide the greatest live spectacle ever!

As well as space for live performances there will be space for other events made available for you:
A lobby area where you can meet artists and participate in events
An international food court where you can sample foods of the world
Space where you can purchase exclusive event/artist goods
A flea market where you can sell your own goods
Areas where you can freshen up and rest and relax

On July 19th, 2009 (Japan time) the madness begins!
For those living outside of Japan, you can purchase tickets as part of a tour-package.

GENERAL INFORMATION
DATE: October, 24th (SAT)-25th (SUN)
VENUE: CHIBA MAKUHARI MESSE
TICKET: 1-DAY TICKET 12,000 JPY (tax-included) / 2-DAY TICKET 20,000 JPY (tax-included)

Source: V-RockFes.com

this above is definitely good news but...

２００９．８．９
「Versailles」 Urgent Announcement

Though Jasmine You had taken time off in order to rest because of poor physical condition, we received a report that early in the morning on August 9th, he died. Because of the extreme abruptness of this news, the members and staff are all dumbfounded and trying hard to accept this it.

As soon as his family has been notified and updated as to the details and we receive their permission, we will further report to all of the fans.

Moreover, with the current announcement, in regards to activity, please allow us to postpone it.
OMG. how could he have died? and i was just enjoying their new album ascendead masters a while back. i don't understand why great musicians and other great people tend to pass before their time... is this some sort of trend? please tell me the above announcement was a hoax...

OMG. how could he have died? and i was just enjoying their new album ascendead masters a while back. i don't understand why great musicians and other great people tend to pass before their time... is this some sort of trend? please tell me the above announcement was a hoax...

_|_ u *****

2009-08-15T10:29:00.002+08:00

dammit. this shitface has got a real bad atitude towards people she's not as close to. 'answer your ma'am! she's not talking to the wall!' just because i didn't bring the compulsory items that we don't even use how the fwuk do you want me to answer that? 'cos i oh so fwuking dunwanna' would be one way for the annoying ahole.

diediedie

2009-08-12T19:01:00.003+08:00

tomorrow is home econs. die. today i tried to shirk my responsibility. sorry yufang. i am such a person. sigh. in the end, what must be done must be done. grew some 'fruits' and decided to do it. kinda excited to do the okonomiyaki because after all it was taught to me by Aoi kun. dear vocalist of Ayabie.

bijuu's quite the B ne? trying to seduce Miku then Aoi.

just realized my class is quite the comedy. i get a kick out of observing them xDDD

ps: Gackt has opened up a lot. probably was Ogata Ken who broke the wall he seemed to had before leaving this world. thanks to him Gackt has found that fatherly silhouette to look up to.

mr brain

2009-08-10T22:05:00.004+08:00

lots of mr brain pics of Gackt :D crazed serial killer suits him so well~

goshh~ this pic is sososo SMEX

^^^this is very interesting.^^^

sigh. yesterday, suddenly i remembered, 8.22pm. went to channel 5, tried to get online live telecast, but the show was over. that felt stupid.

yesterday, got hooked on restaurant city and pet society. sigh, who knew.
today, my mum started playing restaurant city and too got hooked to it. with a failed canteen business, she felt happy earning virtual cash by the minute. lol. at least she's found her thing.

ps: mr brain being sold at ts >.<

tired.

2009-08-09T00:06:00.001+08:00

here's Gackt sama, smex as ever.

tired. tired. tired. but, tomorrow and monday i can rest. i sometimes wish i remembered all the details i wanted to blog about.

lee jun ki

2009-08-07T12:37:00.003+08:00

Gackt pic.

kawaii~

kakkoii~

kiree~

he wears strange because in the movie 'the king and the clown', he's a jester who's specialty is femal roles.

bijin~

kawaii~ or in korean, kiyooo~ [i believe so]

lee jun ki CM, quite cool.

Gackt CM, very smex but the lady could've been changed, to someone else cough*hinthint*cough

recently watched 'the king and the clown' mostly because i was interested in the yaoi romance :X. and so, in the end i liked it very much and loved lee jun ki very much. sigh, i have so much of a knack for effeminate males~

happy birthday, singapore.

2009-08-07T12:16:00.000+08:00

tired, somehow, after short day at school. must be the pills. the FLU pills.

embarressing day.

2009-08-06T17:55:00.002+08:00

public speaking course today was an exceptionally embarressing day. no.1, how the hell am i supposed to know how to make happy eyes? squint them till they disappear and why must he throw the sweet when i'm off guard and lost.

today science test, sigh, forgot to study of ask for some tip-offs and ended up quite lost. the michael jackson video during class was quite a shock too. it was difficult trying to follow the images and and the lyrics at the same time...

i nearly shouted 'EFF YOU' when mr cheng made us stay another 7 minutes. sigh, being early doesn't actually give you any benefits ne?

sick. again.

2009-08-04T16:15:00.002+08:00

sick again. according to my mc i don't have to go back to school for the rest of the week. it's either the weather, h1n1 or me that's causing all this trouble.

after getting the temperature verified, i had all sorts of hypocrites scrambling to 'help' me. same as when i was in primary six, or was it five, i puked and all sort of bitches volunteered to help me out of 'goodwill'. how disgusting...

2009-08-02T14:12:00.002+08:00

sometimes i have strange visions. last night before sleeping i kinda saw a face. more like, the feature of a face on something like a skin that spreads out like a paper. maybe it's inspiration, maybe a vision of something. i don't know. maybe i should bother myself less with strange stuff like these.

i & e

2009-07-31T18:42:00.003+08:00

today was tiring, had to present, which i didn't really do, then decorate then take it down. wtf.
pretty big shit too. all the people and stuff. then must man this man that. at least we got a merit and earned $25 back divided in half, $12.50. i didn't even think i'd get something out of this crap so i was surprised. yufang got 1st, lucky sio. wanted to skip out on guides after that but got caught and pretty much dragged back. homework not submitted too :X. tomorrow still have shit. shit finish got tuition... sighh. clever bernice purposely sms mum saying she's going home. nice one... *mad*

#403 post

2009-07-30T23:01:00.001+08:00

annoying a-holes. that's what i'll call my noisy neighbours from now on. the police has come for them. they asked for it. dammit. how do they manage having so much drama all the time. 'you want to kill me ah?' i heard a guy, probably one of the troublemakers say to the, perhaps police. if he had been asking me my answer would be YES because i am eff-ed up with crap. seriously. tomorrow i have to present till late in the evening then clean up then i still have to submit my homework which till now is still undone. how eff-ed up can my life get.

tired and fedup.

2009-07-30T18:21:00.001+08:00

today busy whole day doing i & e crap. tired, tired, tired. tomorrow still have. wth. i'm drowning in pressure. sigh, sigh, sigh. tomorrow no classes for me but still must hand in homework. teachers, WHERE IS THE MERCY~

today's food compo has revealed just how much of a glutton i really am. how embarressing.

wound has scab now :D

2009-07-29T17:02:00.002+08:00

just for the sake of having something here.

leg hurt this morning. why? scab had formed and was hard and chunky. bent knee made it painful. at least the wonderous discharge is gone.

today L tan flamed us. but i was brave, i fought her and brought her down. no one, no one ever lives to tell their tale once they've even thought of confronting me. no one...

now for some truth. hectic life. lemme see. tomorrow is set up for i & e then friday's the actual thing. tomorrow is reading test. book's not finished. must finish by tonight. i got the ice cream sticks' holes drilled and am proud of my accomplishment. saturday is NGDC. have F have C have K. just need U. dammit. i'd rather be doing phony couch fashion with e4 than retardo game designing which i pretty much didn't do anything about. i'm sorry my group for having to put up with a slacker me.

the bitch has revealed her true nature~!

2009-07-28T22:36:00.002+08:00

nyahahahaha. after my bitchin' from yesterday somehow some of 'her' true foulness has leaked. i'm such a pro.

so busy this week. i & e then what chinese tingxie tomorrow then what what what BS... i'm tired. okay? call me ahma whatever. i'm not made for such hectic lifestyle.

today when singapore river. even i;m not sure if it was enjoyable or not... but ice cream was fun but the vulgar bitchin' }some people{ were just incredibly embarressing. lucky not my class and i too realise just how much i would hate getting into such a class. imagine. ... ... ... like my current situation is any good.

i can't help wanting to laugh out loud everytime i see shuanmeng do something silly to tease joel. it's just hilarious and makes you want to laugh along. sighh. if i want to concentrate on my studies i'll have to become blind and deaf to his nonsense... xDDD

SAMUiii~

2009-07-27T17:57:00.003+08:00

cold. cold. cold. thurdays must set up booth for i & e then friday is presentation. one thing i'm looking forward to is skipping out on classes and CHiNESE. have come to fear it? maybe not but not too much of look forward to it because...? because my chinese is no good? not as good as supposed to be? ... ... ... maybe i should drop out on my own.

must do d & t write up before sleeping... i have to remember...

must do d & t write up before sleeping... must do d & t write up before sleeping...
must do d & t write up before sleeping... must do d & t write up before sleeping...
must do d & t write up before sleeping... must do d & t write up before sleeping...
must do d & t write up before sleeping... must do d & t write up before sleeping...
must do d & t write up before sleeping... must do d & t write up before sleeping...

sigh... hopefully i don't forget and cause trouble for sining again. i'm sorry the 'thing' is soo orange too. paiseyy lah. orange is the new black? ^^|||

damn certain bitch. disrespect people's property. lemme tell you, there' two kind of good looking/popular people.

1. supposingly chio to idiots/thinks themself as highly chio + damn bitchy + sucks up whenever supposingly needed
2. kawaii + has good personality

obviously this certain bitch needs some character building...

ps: i think i need a shock proof phone...

new skin

2009-07-26T20:40:00.003+08:00

as you may or may not have noticed, blogskin's been changed, again. this time i used something i've used before. originally a Nightmare skin but i don't really know or particularly a fan of theirs so now its a Versailles skin :D.

today tried to finish up on the dnt product but not complete since i don't have the ice cream sticks... what am i to do... sigh. i'm a huge idiot losing the product pieces. i doubt sining even knows what's happened since she didn't even reply my saddening sms which was sent in tears.

finished my home econs food info thing too, finally. extremely late in submission too. all i can do now is hand it in to her quietly and hopefully by thursday she'll forget her anger and forget to flame me ^^|||.

what does a girl gotta do to get some love and understanding?

2009-07-25T19:57:00.002+08:00

paid $17 for 'special treatment' today. heart hurts... got my wound dressed. still hurts. there was lots of discharge from the wound.

today finally went for tuition and made up a good enough reason for earlier absences. flu, flu and now, injured ^^. obviously some old ***** was hinting at me to stop going at my own pace and do as she wishes. well sorry, i won't and if you're not going to quietly back off i'm going to get ROUGH~

KOAKUMA

2009-07-24T21:57:00.003+08:00

Gackt - Koakuma Heaven (live)

@ music station

@ concert

at first i thought this song was way off Gackt sama's style but after a while and knowing more about it i liked it more and more. the song's basically written from a girl's perspective which is strange for Gackt sama to be honest and knowing the meaning i kinda relate to it and the dance? xDDD the dance steps are easy too follow. please don't even try to visualise me following along because i did... for the concert i liked the nekos better than those gyarus. hands off him *******! he looked damn kawaii in the concert too. sigh. fantasies are but fantasies~ sometimes i wish there was some guy in our school exactly that talented and bijin as Gackt sama and Mana sama and many other beloveds. actually next door have lah, next door to the school. Kenn senpai~!!!

CRAPiOLi~!!!

2009-07-24T20:12:00.003+08:00

ohh crap. today fell while doing shuttle run and right about fatimah who too fell. feels dumb. after that no one seem to bother much. seriously, someone ought to let me go home or something like that. then dumb zhongzhong refuse to let me go for lunch even though my cca starts at 2pm sharp and i needed to eat and change just like those people involved in the chinese compo competition. after that wasn't excused from guides and went to health zone to get health badge then came back not let off for foot drill till ma'am was switched. that ******* *****! how dare she do this to me?! ... next week need to make up for the 50 pumpings i skipped out on.

one word for today: ****!!!

don't give me gayshit ya gayish piece of shit!

damn happy and hyped for a secret reason...

2009-07-22T16:16:00.003+08:00

today was relatively boring. almost kenna late... then damn cold. regretted not getting my jacket since i'd miss the bus all the same. got my stupid curve ruler but the paper inside is not straight and i can't seem to straighten it out. eat dung fate!

curve rulers are dumb. i AM an artist afterall and should know better myself if i am capable of drawing a curve by freehand... dumbass...

confession: i'm actually a maniacal stalking fangirl xDDD

stupid loser tan...

2009-07-21T15:20:00.004+08:00

flaming some other asshole xDDD

previous reminder to cut my nails xD

trash from my handbook. virtually flaming some asshole i've long forgotten about.

second prototype. slightly less chibi-ed :D

first prototype of sou and winry. chibi-ed somehow...

as highlighted. the time and date.

stupid old bag. dare make a fool of me? dare gimme the wrong date? ...

i had a bad ache too. somewhere...

need bendy ruler...

hippie yahyah~

2009-07-20T15:59:00.004+08:00

i'm telling you, only fools won't appreciate THE LEGENDARY X JAPAN.

generally had a tiring day. thought singapore river was today ;P. last night spent whole night doing town plan and... ermm, playing facebook games...

washed hair before going to school today but was late and miraculously mr singh just hurried me off to class without taking my name down for detention. miracle~

ms yue never come. sick. i hope she gets well even though she's a teacher xD. she's one of the more preferred ones on my chart.

today i witnessed a gruesome enough fight between two amateurs. it was almost like a slapping duel. lol. freaked me out at first though. seeing it made me uncomfortable too. and to think i used to love blood and gore. i'm becoming a bloody hippie...

ps: i've finally come up with a good enough image of my dear sou and winry. in my handbook that is. must scan soon then go on to do a proper one :)

i'll miss you biggie...

2009-07-19T22:25:00.003+08:00

gems of jrock. must listen if you're not an S.O. :X

just came back, well, a while back from a gathering. its kinda sad thinking of losing someone dear. well, not really losing losing but losing losing. i know, i'm typing crap. she's going back to the philipines but at least she's escaping the cruel hands of the EViL. ms isabel treated us to good stuff today. i'll miss her big time even if i say and seem like i won't. she's a bundle of joy all compressed into that tiny frame of hers.

yesterday and the days before i've been watching paranormal programmes and stuff on hollywood tragedies. it seems like anyone, and i mean anyone could be here this moment and gone the next so whoever it is you have to treasure because who knows how long more you have together unless you were a shinigami who could see the countdown to your final day.

today we went kinokuniya and i saw a lot of my babies. i felt so at home with all the japanese magazines featuring familiar people. i wish i had the cash to buy them anyway...

2009-07-18T13:17:00.002+08:00

i don't wanna go for tuition. please don't make me go. it's an utter waste if my precious precious precious time ya know?

Ryoujoku No Ame cover by Kenn senpai. and here's proof he's a senpai from beatty just that he's actually from harwood, not fisher.

damn kawaii interview from miyavi. you know how some people can be so random and make you love them whilst others just add oil to the flames of hate? it's just funny.

ps to that special bitch: HANDS OFFA HiM. HE'S MiNE!

whoopee

2009-07-17T21:49:00.002+08:00

today i got my blouse. damn happy. went with bernice to get it. apparently she came with me because she missed the class outing but i'm happy enough. the blouse was okay just that the sleeves didn't hang loosely as supposed and the collar felt biggish.

today i confessed the truth to bernice. she was understanding and promised to keep it safe for me. good. if it went out, which i'm doubtful of since everyone doesn't really seem to notice or bother about me, it would be embarressing.

one of these days i'm going to wear my blouse out to an event :)

PASTAAA~

2009-07-16T15:27:00.002+08:00

today made pasta. shiokshiok. dema sa, by the time we were released there wasn't anytime to eat, only enough time to go down to the canteen and walk back up. pretty pointless.

tomorrow bernice has agreed to miss out on her class movie viewing to acompany me to get my blouse. so thankful. one of the nice stuff she does for me.

i still have a bit of a flu and underestimated myself and ended up using up all the tissues. i still had a bit of a cough too. maybe i should stay home tomorrow... ;P

2nd day of mc

2009-07-15T11:55:00.002+08:00

i wonder if anyone missed me. lol. if anyone even noticed my absence and felt lonely. lol. nevermind. i'm happy being invisible. i guess.

new haircut: nice. had a hairwash too. she was rough wash my hair but did well drying and straightening out my hair but everytime i coughed the people nearby within a mile seem to jump lol. paiseyy lah. somemore is phlegmed cough so it sounds really bad.

i guess i'll be back in school by tomorrow.

winry sama to sou kun. i just can't seem to draw them out as i wished them to be. winry would probably have a more princely aura and sou would be more knightly. sigh.

why would she suddenly talk to me about av out of the blue just because i'm watching a japanese drama? and cosplay too. how am i to answer her? ... of course i know what it is but why would i tell it to her with her status? doesn't she know i'll feel uncomfortable? doesn't she think? this isn't the first time...

HEADACHE.

2009-07-13T19:18:00.002+08:00

this is what the seller's got.

what it's supposed to look like after worn.

and this is what i intend to get at $28. supposed to be in minty condition, only tried on once. hopefully i can fit too because apparently i have quite a broad shoulder and stuff so i'm slightly worried that what happened in the past will happen again, the item not turning out as supposed to. hopefully i don't end up losing the sleeves too as i've done with my black socks. now only left one... TT^TT and i liked it a lot...

not feeling well so maybe not going school tomorrow. i did get an sms from the hpb about staying at home and wearing a mask if unwell. like it was a warning to me lol. mr chia made me stay back and finish all my work before leaving. looking at all those numbers made my head almost split apart. i've been having a bad headache since yesterday. tomorrow seeing docter perhaps...

heard some unkind stuff about my mum from my grandma. i guess i can understand what she's feeling. having her grown children still giving her problems and not being responsible enough for themselves even at this age is definitely worrying. i wish i could do something to help.

angang flamed rch today. so scary. he really blew up the angkukueh. there was peanut filling flying all over the place like a peanut eruption? ...

i'm going crazy and going to sleep now... i think??

my mum... is dead?

2009-07-12T14:31:00.003+08:00

yesterday i woke up from a dream that my mum was dead and was crying my eyes out. this is the second time i remember waking up crying. the first time was abuse from a somehow familiar teacher. this time i think i was somehow influenced by Paris' speach and her plight. goshh.

friday i was retained by mr chia for not doing work. when he realised i was an f9-er in maths he somehow seemed shocked. hey, not everyone was made to be a maths teacher kkay? he couldn't make me stay and complete it because mine was completely blank and it'd take forever for me to finish lol.

finally sgclub's up again. i saw this really pretty blouse and am interested in getting it but that'd mean my wallet would be completely emptied. 'to be or not to be, that is the question...' goshh.

hooked to facebook games. started of with fashion wars then vampire wars. ms isabel's fault lahh. i guess i like the feeling of 'earning money' lol.

yesterday i made my didi wear my mum's nightdress and wig again and he looked as cute as ever. as a boy he never seemed that way. i guess i should just convert him to a girl. lol.

i am a malfunctioning human who has lost all trace of confidence during childhood and is now lost in this unknown place. someone save me from this misery. i wish i had the balls to open up and be what i really am. it gets tiring holding back all my emotions and thoughts. last thursday, i believe, it was ms yue's class and my bladder was bursting and she just kept talking and talking without the sign of ever stopping and i just couldn't seem to find that chance to jump in and ask for the toilet pass. see what lack of confidence does to you. it's worse than you think.

LM。C

2009-07-09T18:17:00.004+08:00

kawaii~!

so cool. well, the only cool thing of the day. i heard someone blasting LM.C's hits on their cell during the podcast workshop. i wonder who else in this school shares vkei love like me.

songs i recognized:
88
PUNKY HEART
OH MY JULIET...

some people, like Maya kun, look sweet in pink, some just look like gays so please think twice before you wear that eye piercing pink thing. not all were cut out for the visual look.

i still get the fluttery feeling seeing her. i feel attracted to people who appear to have no ill intentions i guess. lol. good work shining. i did barely 10 seconds of whispering while she did the rest. i'm sorry but this is me.

ps: i'm starting to think i'm not even from mars but saturn.

pss:
a movie in which MJ starred in: the WiZ

Release Date:

24 October 1978 (USA)

MJ liked '24th october' alottalotta~

'he was the best father you could ever imagine...' -Paris Katherine Jackson.

2009-07-08T23:02:00.002+08:00

out of the whole memorial that but made me drop one tear drop per eye. perhaps it was because i was sleepy after watching from 1am-4am, maybe i could feel her pain, maybe... it was kind of saddening but for the first time, Paris spoke publicly, she made me tear. gosh, am i the only idiot who napped till 1am to watch it live? LIVE i repeat. ... it's just different when it's live...

those hypocritical bitches using me as a pawn. i'll show you to use ore sama as such. the price is DEATH, not. it's a lot worse than that. stupid guy in black in charge of the NGD workshop. dammit. like i wanted to sit and watch and play dumb. i was being magnanimous, i won't fight with amateurs to play board games, i rise high above that. i'll castrate you and all your male descendents, should you have AT ALL, for all eternity for humiliating me. you're eating my dung for that i tell you. some attention freak comes to school for attention. seriously, it's enough already. go geylang for attention if you need, i think it's $300 per session thank you... :x

i type too much. i'm gonna be flamed for all my inappropriate language that definitely doesn't match up to what you all see in class. push the wrong buttons and i'll shoot dung in you face i tell you.

tomorrow is BYD, i paid but too paiseyy to wear home clothes. i paid because last year i didn't as i was sick on the day of the collection. this year i paid out of goodwill as i know somehow it'll come right back to me xDDD. oh well...

so fustrated. princely WiNRY sama or knightly SOU kun? ... i'd better do a character design for my two fantasy lovers. LOL

Jackson Memorial LIVE at 1am

2009-07-08T00:49:00.003+08:00

here i am waiting for 1am to come after having bathed and napped from about 6-7pm onwards. i found out about the live broadcast on mtv and since i have no other means i'll be watching it live from mtvasia.com/mj. @12.44am which is now they have started showing past perfomances so tata~

2009-07-06T13:36:00.002+08:00

yesterday i just bought Michael Jackson's LIVE in Bucharest: the Dangerous Tour. $12.90 flew away just like that. oh well. found it on the internet too. like dongmaekgol, i think, which i bought a while back only to find it on the internet. lost the cd after watching it too. my zhongjiyiban was destroyed to pieces too... i couldn't play my dvd at first on the computer too because there was no sound but eventually fixed it with the right codecs. i'm damn pro sia. :D

been watching the dvd and just found this:
"Smooth Criminal" is the seventh single from Michael Jackson's Bad album (1987). The song contains a fast-paced beat intertwined with Jackson's lyrics about a woman named Annie, who has been attacked in her apartment by an assailant. It was released as a single on October 24, 1988 and peaked at 7 on the Billboard Hot 100.^[1] It was re-released on April 10, 2006 as a part of the Visionary: The Video Singles box-set. The re-released Visionary single charted at #19 in the UK. In 2003, the song appeared on the Number Ones greatest hits album.

so cool. my birthday~ >.< the great depression falls on my birthday too. xDDD

im old. too old...

2009-07-03T16:20:00.005+08:00

as i promised, myself..., to post this rammed frog picture. please avoid looking at it if you happen to be eating ;P

kire deshou~?

STOP ya asshole! xD

smexilicious hyde sama as seen in ageha

left - pauline, right - Mana sama. 6////6

did more research on MJ. sigh. i got all his songs yay. teehee. -proud-
some asshole taunted me, AGAIN. maybe, idk, paranoia is killing me, can't help to think their 'courtesy' is evil teasing. i wish i had more confidence then maybe i would fit in better... sometimes i wish i could just explain to the world that i'm not unsociable, just overly shy and take damn long to warm up to my surroundings. i'm sorry i couldn't be a better classmate. f-lah. why am i apologising for what i am, look at the other people. yesterday went to Brina's house to supposingly help out with the history project. sorry i'm so useless. her house damn big. my aspiration: to have my very own nest. her house nice, almost got lost finding my way back though. i also found out what kinda stuff normal sociable girls talk about: the boys in class. lol. i felt old listening to them. gosh, i feel aged beyond my years. today was height and weight checking, result, okay. weight, unchanged and SECRET :X, height, i grew taller by 2cm, 165 is the least i must have, so 4cm more. this week when i came back to class, while lining up, i felt like i was lost in a forest with all the tall guys blocking me. seriously, i don't understand why boys have to grow so tall for. i know breasts are for breast-feeding should the time come but their height i don't understand the purpose. MJ's neverland is so cool. a while back i was afraid of growing up too, i wanted to go back to being a child like as though i'm already grown up. i think i should get my head checked. i have worries and thoughts of a grown adult even though i am somewhere in the prime of my youth who's supposed to be doing crazy things with my 'girlfriends' like all others. sigh. GOD save my soul. release me from my OLDness.

ps: today i was late and got detention, AGAIN. one my way to school i saw the place where i would always take the lift up to my grandma's house barricaded and there was this tent as shown on tv used for covering corpses. maybe its gone now but i got scared. with the height of that building it could've been death from falling over. idk. i hope it comes out on the newspaper because i need to know after all i will be going to my grandma's house sooner or later...

pps?/pss?/ppss?: my work is in a mess. all undone and messed up. i'mma DOOMED.

KING of POP, to be remembered.

2009-06-30T23:30:00.002+08:00

to the late michael jackson who was really the good guy giving back to society and caring for the underprivileged. i feel foolish for only getting to know him more after his death. after my little research i kinda felt empty for a while. he sang great songs with actual substance. after his death, his property become of utmost importance to those possible of the inheritance and suddenly his children aren't actually his own. really sad... great people tend to live short lives. like hide sama as well...

kungfu in SLEEP?

2009-06-26T02:32:00.002+08:00

this morning i remember waking up from a dream where i was harshly treated/pretty much abused. i woke up tearing just like in my dream. so strange. then my right foot hurt too. strange right?

last night i went out in the middle of the night to this wholesale veggie place in the middle of the road somewhere in toa payoh. damn cool lor. they start at 12am and end at 6am. true nocturnals. then went to eat laksa at the 24/7 kopitiam where this lady so sly, overcharge us. my mother is the type to not take anything lying down and of course fought for her money back. lol. if is me i could only curse her deep down...

LETTUCE FOREVER.

2009-06-24T00:15:00.004+08:00

DAMN CUUUTE
Jungbo ended as the PERFECT WINNERS of this particular episode. winning the wrestling and performance plus compatibility. told ya age is but a number midst the forest of love. gosh am i good at corny stuffm :D. plus points for Hyun Joong's ability to the play guitar. me like musicians~ -nosebleed-

homework still not done. stress. but not stress enough to actually make me do it xD.

dnt project pushed to tomorrow last minute. and i was supposed to meet bernice tomorrow because i thought it was today...

starting to like korean boys... 6////6 provided they're pretty and sweet like candies >.<
LETTUCE UNITE!

SOBSOB...

2009-06-23T02:07:00.002+08:00

just finished watching Hyunjoong & Hwangbo aka LETTUCE COUPLE of 'WE GOT MARRIED'. so sad they had to split. it was really fun watching them. this feels like a letter of grattitude more than a blog post. for 8 months they spent together. wish it would last longer but since its a reality programme its not forever... too bad Hyungjoon had to film BOYS BEFORE FLOWERS or he could've continued with it. to his most memorable line, 'what the hell is this?! GET LOST.' feel heavy in the heart for them...

on a another note, DAMN. tomorrow have to do dnt stuff. then there's other last minute homework to try and complete. ... sigh...

i think for a while i'll be hooked onto stairway to heaven and winter sonata's osts' songs because they were used frequently in WGM for the lettuce couple.

ps: trying to learn hiragana and katakana when my chinese itself is DUNG.

2009-06-16T19:18:00.003+08:00

found something DAMN COOL~

Gackt will release four new singles in the middle of the year in order to commemorate his 10th anniversary as a solo artist. The singles will be released in a weekly scheme, starting with Koakuma Heaven on June 10th, Faraway ~hoshi ni negai wo~ on the 17th, Lost Angels on the 24th and ending with Flower, on July 1st. However, pre-orders are only limited to his fan-club Dears until May 1st, and store releases are expected to occur at the same time, though it is not 100% confirmed yet. The tracklists for all singles are as follows:

Koakuma Heaven: Koakuma Heaven / My Father's Day
Faraway ~hoshi ni negai wo~: Faraway ~hoshi ni negai wo~ / Oblivious ~kao no nai tenshi~
Lost Angels: Lost Angels / No Reason / Suddenly
Flower: Flower / In Flames

so now i already have the 1st single and the album artwork as displayed i'll just have to wait for the next few releases >.<

ps: i wanna watch MR. BRAiN where Gackt sama stars as an psychotic serial killer~ -nosebleed- so smexyy~

2009-06-16T17:15:00.002+08:00

LADY GAGA @ MUSiC STATiON! sugoii~ that's like the very platform other great japanese singers and bands perform... me wanna go...

ruki sama 太帅了~ gazette no SUBARASHi~

zomgzomgZOMG~ GAZETTE IN HAKAMAS~ -NOSEBLEED-

wonderful dream~

2009-06-16T12:56:00.002+08:00

i just woke up from a really cool dream. somehow i was trying a cigar too xDDD. lucky no singh appeared to stop me. well, i didn't really get to try it because when i went to the topi san [i don't know why i addressed him as that too], my cigar was kinda out of shape and unrolling already then when he went to get fire from a coal stove i took is and then the loose end of the cigar flamed up in his face. xDDD i panicked a bit and woke. seriously if i could sleep some more and enjoy that dream i would. oh right, topi man makes sushis and then the place was kinda like a korean and japanese food only food court and i was talking to this guy and this was how i got the cigar then there was makeup on another side of the food court. when i was getting my cigar lighted aishwarya somehow came. freaky that'd i'd dream of someone i know. then she asked me something about docter or me? and i answered me as is the cigar's for me. strange... anyway, i woke with bodyaches all over. must be yesterday's tough guide training. you wanna say we guniang and slack right? come lah, i take you on head on and i'll drive a stake through you're skull. ... 3rd week of the holiday and no work done yet. DAMMIT. WHY, WHY MUST WE DO WORK EVEN DURING A HOLIDAY? NAZE!?

NAKAMARU JUMPED~ xD - finally.

2009-06-12T15:48:00.003+08:00

nakamaru finally jumped on the final day of the concert the 20m bungee. lol. ueda did the jump on one of the days and with ease too. lol. put nakamaru to shame.

official fangirl of KAT-TUN

Kazuya Kamenashi
Jin Akanishi
Junnosuke Taguchi
Koki Tanaka
Tatsuya Ueda
Yuichi Nakamaru

watching cartoon kat tun i saw a movie ad for gokusen and kame apparently appears in the teacher's office in a suit. whoohoo. does it mean he came as a teacher? seemed to shock yankumi a lot for sure. i wanna watch~

RESCUE - KAT-TUN: nicenice, should watch, pretty catchy too ^o^

im GiRLY

2009-06-12T13:03:00.002+08:00

thought i'd go pastel and soft on the colours and here it is. nice? music is stuff i saw on mtv and LOVED.

was doing maths with bernice but now she ran off to have lunch and i used the time to change blogskin. pythora is DUMB and confusing. ... ... ... i don't wanna do it anymore.

maybe after holidays i'll delete this blog and startover again. i've used it for quite long liaoz anyway.

whoohoo~

2009-06-11T02:14:00.002+08:00

a really pretty song by Mika Nakashima. somehow i couldn't find the pv, all covers...

uso by SiD. ending song for FMA, should be something familiar for animanias~ ^^

a while ago i saw Uso by SiD and i am xxx by GLAY then Suna no Oshiro by Kanon. nice seeing stuff within your interests on tv in HQ.
fated to love you is getting EXCiTing. lol, there was a yaoi scene xDDD. jk nya. mai xiang wai lah.

2009-06-05T23:16:00.002+08:00

i am xxx - GLAY

PUNKY HEART - LM.C

both of which i first heard on mtv. i love i am xxx so much. theme song of BLOOD, which i so damn der wanna watch but sadly is rated M18. ftw! ... punky heart of LM.C is sooo cool with cho kawaii der maya kun.

can't believe i'm now actually too lazy to even use the computer. only after a millenium did i bother to turn it on and use it. gosh, look what holidays do to you :D. sigh. i didn't give my blog link to the person in charge before the holidays and am so doomed. oh well. what can i do? no mood to do work at all. better start next week or it'll all be too late.

2009-06-02T15:31:00.002+08:00

whoohoo~ Mana sama's into punk, well, i knew that, i knew he was a big fan of Motley Crue as well and knew he played drums but this is way awesome~ Mana sama 我嫁定了！

mee phone more popular than expected, or so it seems...

2009-05-31T23:23:00.001+08:00

i spotted my darling shiro kun's relatives twice in singapore a just only, in korean movie, baby and me. :DDD and i thought it wasn't all that desirable and people shunned it. oh well, don't worry, i'll love you well shiro kun :D

with my caller id thing cancelled, just about anyone can prank call me and i wouldn't know who it is... sigh.

2009-05-31T10:07:00.001+08:00

HOORAY FOR HOLiDAYS! and yet what is this bitter sweet longing for school? nahh, just my head gone wrong xDDD. yesterday i saw a flattened frog on the road. damn cool. will show picture another time :D. so proud on having found it. yesterday went daiso bought so much crap. sigh, liddat lah.

SORRY, SORRY

2009-05-23T23:43:00.003+08:00

my foot your face am i apologising... this song, since i saw it on mtv i liked it a lot. strangely this is perhaps a first for mee love for korean songs :D strange they're called super junior. not junior-ish at all lor. so many also. more like 'super crowded' xD well, kattun came out from johnny's boys so i can't say anything but the world of entertainment is complex...

2009-05-23T00:53:00.002+08:00

i really want this but with all the delivery fees and everything, too much for a broke bloke like me...

just finished doing up my chinese blog. no posts yet and its a default blogger skin. i don't intend to show too much of my true side xDDD. and yes, some assholes angered me today by daring * to say hi to me. try that and you'll never live to make another pip outta that big mouthed small body of yours... your comrades too. i'll hand you by your pricks and sun you, make all that crap come out. ... someone oughtta smack their bottoms alongside my brother. lucky their not my brothers or they'll be going to school with new 'marks' everyday. -evil grin-

A2 and i'm top in class? i don't want to gloat but i think my class' standards can be raised. what an embarressement...

world war 1 repeat?

2009-05-21T16:59:00.002+08:00

capture by the over-bearing singh, we were made to sit on our asses on the floor of the corridor. there we awaited our sentence. finally we were sent into the cold bare room for our sentence. finally, i could not take being dragged into this crap for nothing i stood up against the fearsome singh and proved to him i was innocent. this class was actually for all dentention skippers. i went der lor. made me scared shit for nothing. my name was recorded nicely there just that it was tucked under the file's edge and missed. this kindaa mistakes are UNFORGiVABLE! yurusanai. and to think i had felt bad enough feeling stared at all day...

tired.

2009-05-18T17:32:00.004+08:00

when i say i live across chij it is not this nice condo here, its the shabby hdb on its left :)

pigeons, MY NEMESiS!!!

this is good stuff, MUST TRY xDDD

afternoon naps must be taken in shades, even cats know that :D

presenting, zaaa COOL CAT.

mr Hitler xDDD

my slumber buds takumi kun on left and kumakuma chi-aaan on right

feels majestic, really is Fullerton.

'whooo~' i like this tunnel.

YURE~ KOWAii~ NiGEROU~!!!

'tadaaa~'

zaaa city lights of wonderful singapore :D

lim bo seng's [i think] memorial. my memory's failing me :<

citylink :>

these manga are GOOD. must read :D

bubble tea RULES the streets of toa payoh xDDD

a good cup of coffee is a good start for the day :)

this is good. must try :D

the 'making' of hitler xD

the hardworking ex-slacker

siian. today not only late for school but no ODT as well. missed alarm, maymay play with my bag. therefore the mess. not only must listen to booboo's crappin' but chengteng's yappin' as well. waste my time. then after school there's baboosing's turn. he sure knows how to make FULL USE of YOUR time... make us clean classroom, too fast, make you read, still got time, make you pluck dead leaves... and i was stuck with two yappin' bitches. can't understand how boys can bitch so much. and i was the one who actually CLEANED the classroom okay? ... little napoleon, YOU DiE NOW!!! mwuahahahahaha...

whoopee. tomorrow no school. but still need go back to ah ma's house which is like BESiDE the school. i promised to be there... obligations... WHAT A PAiN

end of the world?

2009-05-17T11:18:00.003+08:00

since last friday i've been experiencing strange incidents. first was this strange performer at the esplanade with a terrible sense of humour. she was yaking on and on about pubs and ways to hook up. laughing as though it was all funny. nobody reacted and she went on about hooking bankers and hr personals... i felt sorry for her in a way. then there was a vulgar outbreak at clark quay, one of those tunnels. there was this eurasian street guitarist and he was yelling all sorts of obscenities at a couple of 'ang mo' tourists. he was shouting something like 'fuck your body, fat ass, bastard, bitch' etcetcetc... then finally the tourist decided to leave they said 'bye' then he replied with an original, 'you say bye chinese say CHEE BYE' made me laugh. he was threatening to call the police even though he seemed to be the one to create all that chaos. then yesterday on my way to tuition this lady suddenly bent down with legs straight probably to adjust her shoe or something and 'BAM', her black lacy underpants was revealed. oh god, she's a grown lady, can't she have more decency? the after tuition there was a group of sec 1s talking fuck, literally. they were probably saying something about 'fuck you' then it continued on to whether anyone would fuck them. soe despo stand around geylang lah... then in the train there was this grown man quarreling with this old lady over a seat. no balls der, petty until liddat. feels like God's showing me the corruptions of today's world and how it's going to end...

2009-05-14T23:22:00.003+08:00

tomorrow is literature. funny that i was able to avoid the computer for so many days. me and shiro chan have been getting along well enough, for now. went to school twice today by WALKiNG, i'd better had burnt some calories through that. ... tomorrow is literature. sigh. bleach noobsters. so noob until still need to 'chiong'. seriously, the series is not all out yet, you must be damn noob to have to chiong. watch and learn little pricks! you guys are all bakayaroS. just URUSAi and quit the small talk on noob shit.

2009-05-13T02:29:00.002+08:00

HEYHEYHEY. me today is DAMN HAPPY and damn der a bit stupid. i studied wrong subject for today's test. i thought it was history... but it was maths and i didn't even have my calculator. like my maths isn't bad enough without it. todya damn happy got my viewty. at the shop and on the way home kept smiling, cannot help it lah, a happy girl is a crazy girl. so sad, i can't seem to install the pc suite into my com so loaded it into the laptop. sigh... now taking damn long to download my stuff into it. i wanna get some games too but it seems all the stuff i try to download are all corrupted and stuff. oh well. you can't have everything in the world can you?

my BABY~

2009-05-11T20:55:00.002+08:00

and so i'm kinda excited about the delivery of my baby. xDDD my darling, maybe i'll give her a name. maybe a he. idk. we'll decide when she/he comes :). tomorrow's history. ... even though it's just history i can't say i'm too confident especially with that witch... today i worked damn hard. i carried a trolley FULL of groceries with another bag full of toilet and facial paper. yesterday i bought a lot of unnecessary stuff like pens and this damn EXX pencil. hopefully it'll motivate me to study harder and anyway it was all paid via the school-given popular vouchers. :)))

2009-05-08T18:03:00.001+08:00

Singapore Street Festival 09 - DJ Party
Venue :: Youth Park
Date :: June 13th (sat)
Time :: 1800hrs - 6pm
Official website

Youth Mascot Parade 09
Venue :: Takashimaya Atrium
Date :: June 27th (sat)
Time :: 2000hrs - 8pm
Official website

Hope to see you there!

2009-05-08T16:37:00.002+08:00

just finished mopping down the house. worked so hard till i got sweat in my eyes. itai~ it really stings you know? that's why tears come out from your eyes, not sweat xDDD. apparently i did well for english. can't help to 暗爽 a bit or rather a lot xDDD. ohohohohoho~ ^^ i couldn't finish my geography. i guess i had my mind on other stuff. ^^||| hopefully well enough to pass. hopefully my EXCELLENT english and hardwork cleaing the house will please my mother enought o get me that new phone xDDD. i really wanna new one. mine's DEAD. really der lor. it's like, first generation of cam-phones so don't say what i'm spoilt and stuff because i'm not, some people change their phones like seasonally LOH. ... ... ... 不爽

2009-05-07T22:13:00.004+08:00

bijin heaven~ LOL. recently i did 'the happy prince'. to me he looked kinda strange in the tights and all but yeah, kinda handsome too despite the bob cut. i'm not QUEEN OF BiSHONENS for nothing now am i? xDDD. jodan, jodan.

i guess i got the 'inspiration' to draw something luomantiker because of hana yori dango. turned out not bad say?

if i ever do a school-themed manga or something i think i'll use him. he's sooo sweet. >w< maybe it's a she? ... no lah, 'she' must be 'boingte. boing te' xDDD. if ya know what i mean.ahahahahaha. kore mo jodan desu.

and once again i've been made a fool. don't ever say anything to suggest something you're not going to do. damn it. i hate being lied to, empty promises too are considered lies. i take words seriously so don't mess with me. i'm a fragile child... ... ... and i got all excited for nothing. i feel really sad now...

2009-05-06T14:34:00.003+08:00

actually i promised myself to sleep the crap outta meself the moment i reach home but some fucker make me so angry i'll sleep after i vent my anger.

*dear fucking bastard,
TRY STiCKiNG YOUR COCKFACE OUTTA THE WiNDOW AGAiN AND YOU'LL NEVER LiVE TO SEE THE NEXT SUNRiSE. WANN TRY ME YOU GOTTA BE ABLE TO PAY THE PRiCE NOOBSTER. NABE CHEEBAi, BOHLANKUi, JiAT KOWSAi LAH LER, TRY THAT AGAiN AND i'LL MAKE YOU EAT YOUR OWN DiCK YA HEAR THAT YA FUCKiNG COCKFACE.

do not fear my friends, that was but a sincere WARNiNG to all dickheads who decide to try me.

damn, some people so sensative about their own feelings that forget about the rest of the billions who too feel lonliness. their skulls are too thick to receive this message anyway. what crap about you being a part-time friend, called upon only when lonely, what about me? i stay by you so faithfully and when my time comes you shun me. i wonder if i really am your friend. you don't even notice my sadness. wait till i explode and all my emotions shall drown you.

today i saw something unsightly. _ _ was riding on _ _'s lap. so gross. someone, slap the crap out of them please? wann do get a room. not like you all are bijins right? ... sick ass lah.

*note: reason why i am so fucked up by that random cockface. i was walking home when i heard some kid shouting. turned and saw a cockface when i realised he was actually shouting 'BEATTY SEC BEATTY SEC BEATTY SEC'. after i turned he said, 'BEATTY SEC, STUPiD SCHOOL LAH'. fucking asshole, you so smart, swallow your dick for me to see lah?! KAMiNABE, KAMiNABE~

2009-05-05T23:11:00.002+08:00

kawaii~ miku chi-aaan to yura sama~

i'm not too sure which band this is that yura sama was in. looks like a mix of bleach and naruto xD. perhaps that was the intent.

i wanna change of hairstyle. i wouldn't say i love my curly frizzy hair. i wanna rebond and pick out a hairstyle from the wonderful world of visualism. perhaps yura sama. he had this pony tail which was CHOU KAKKOi~ then there's aya chan with his really cute ears which you can't see when he's in costume mode xD. then there was aoi and uruha, their hair is NiCE. maybe my hair's still too short for it yet... and anyway were i really to rebond my hair i don't know how my mother's gonna help me ask for it and how i'll get my visual haircut. ... sighs. dreams were meant to be dreams... i have no idea of my grandmother's reaction of it too. maybe bou kun's typical layered hair and the cuuutesy fringe. ... i was never meant for loud looks but within, i am. within, i am the QUEEN of JROCK beside my king Mana sama 6\\\\6.

i feel like slapping him senseless and yet what is this tinge of sweet happiness?

2009-05-05T21:27:00.002+08:00

so funny, i'm watching hana yori dango season 2 and yet on kbs world it's the korean one playing xD. confused whether to watch that or this. i like the korean hanazawa rui better though. japanese one seems, maybe too cold and does not really have that 'gentle demeanour'. the korean tsukushi is the same actor who acted in one of the channel u drama which was kinda nice. lol, so far she's acted as the 'pauper girl' meets 'rich boy[s]' twice. so lucky, i wanna meet my ouji sama soon too =x.

today i worked damn hard. so hard i deserve a kissukissu from Mana sama xD. finished up DnT board then helped with the literature. hopefully i didn't do bad enough to get a shelling from yufang or sining. i feel so apologetic towards sining for bringing so much trouble.

HONTONi SUMiMASEN DESHiTA - deep bow

during the process, i was annoyed the crap outta meself by emu and pinehole. saying hi randomly to me. am i close to you? more less to emu. damn it...

2009-05-04T21:03:00.002+08:00

today went for detention... F lah, what is this? no one there to watch then felt for like a party. secondary 1 brats so many, all never bring ODT then hang around. i would've slapped their bottoms. after that was geography lessons, actually the last hour of my detention clashed with it and so i chose geography... wait heck long before ms leow came wobbling over with her baby xDDD.

2009-05-02T12:11:00.002+08:00

note: guai kia pauline sama is going for detention on monday for 2 FCUKiNG hours.

monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come monday don't come

truth is i'm kind of scared of the detention room. imagine all the REAL delinquents in there waiting to humtum me at whim. feels like staying in a jail. anyone monday have detention? can be my protector? like hell anyone want to save me... hopefully i see a familiar face... ... ...

2009-05-02T11:37:00.002+08:00

have been wanting to blog some stuff but, procr-

continued on 2nd May

ahahahaha... and i've yet to complete my post. yesterday went out with ms isabel and meimei, saw valencia and kaixin and another whom i recognise only as a councillor. regarding valencia, i've always had a strange attraction for her, nope, not that way, just that she has this kindly atmosphere that almost feels motherly xDDD. she's gonna kill me if she gets wind of my nonsense xDDD.

F lah. so many things wanted to say now all forgotten. ah, remember ler, shining says lots of funny things. xDDD. she likes talking about boys especially. she says my posts are 'angry'. funny lah, then something about someone saying in class my character is different from the way i post stuff. perhaps, truth is, just because i seem quiet and unaffected, a fiery wrath is brewing within the depths of my heart. your every little movement is being monitered by me. no lah, but if you do something stupid and i get wind of it, i'll flame you to the bottom of hell. that's all. nothing to worry about =).

watching THEATRE OF KiSS, larc en ciel conert 2007-2008. DAMN AWESOME. hyde sama so shuai.

2009-04-28T22:08:00.004+08:00

-帅-

i nearly bit my tongue off and died of hyperventilation when i saw alice nine's 'the beautiful name' on MTV asia. >.< must have more, must have more. i hope i get to see more rawkin' jrock hits on it.

tomorrow's my oral presentation. hopefully nothing causes it to be further postponed even though i can't say i'm very looking forward to it. i got my ic and ez-link card now i feel, supreme xD. today class photo was taken, i smiled =), i tried, at least, hopefully it turns out good :D. i must admit my chinese essay today was S-H-i-T-T-Y. hard to do it under pressure. i'm an artist, a creator, definitely not one who works well under stress =). i am glad i am not the worst for chinese. i passed :). i just need to keep up the good work.

boys will be boys, girls will be girls, can't change them even though my hatred for them is great enough to send them on a one way trip to the depths of hell.

i am invisible...i am invisible...i am invisible...

2009-04-27T19:24:00.002+08:00

i am invisible...i am invisible...i am invisible...i am invisible...i am invisible...

and it continues...

上台时想到有上千双眼睛注视着我紧张得快尿裤
下台后发现并没有一个人发觉到我有上台领奖
有一点安慰却有点孤独
没有有人察觉到我的存在
我是透明女侠。。。
死了都没人知道。。。
我对不怕大声发言的人怀有又爱又恨的感觉
羡慕他们的自信
讨厌他们的傲慢
好希望我能踏出阴影
走进光芒
让全世界的人都知道我的存在。。。

and yet it wasn't no one who noticed, kind tenshin-like phoebe was kind enough to congratulate me on the way. i practically FORCED bernice into aknowledging my prize :D
during my sick leave no one too seemed to notice my absence, i feel sad and lonely...

perhaps, in this world of millions, there will always be that single person thinking of me, remembering my presence :)
perhaps...

2009-04-24T19:40:00.005+08:00

i am feeling very warm, almost feverish, feels like i've absorbed all the sun's rays and there's no way to get it out. it feels terrible. my ears feel bad too, like when you're in a plane and the air pressure's high then there's this blocked feeling, must be due to my nose. >.<

0987654321poiuytrewqasdfghjklmmnbvcxz1234567890

to prove my boredom. can make out what it is? =D

welcome to the SiCK show.

2009-04-23T20:39:00.003+08:00

everyone is sick, not sick show then what. sigh. weather has been so hot. today i nearly wanted to attempt mass murder, that is, if i had a sniper because of some tiny resentment further enlarged by the heat which i then countered with a COOLiNG coconut ice-blend. it does wonders i tell you. it felt a little better. maths, sure fail, as usual :D, the seemingly simplest, mean median mode, i could not remember their properties. science, thanks to some ~hints~, i knew it was protein, i wonder where they got their protein from. sickens me to think of it. i know what i will call me mask now, it shall be named:

the MANiFESTATiON OF SiN

how grand is that? it is supposed to show the human face being swallowed by human lust greed desire and etc. i was reading my GHOSTLY JAPAN when i read something about when anything loses the pain of effort, it loses its purpose and therefore is erased. like some domesticated silkworms, they have been granted food, shelter and protection and thus lose their ability to fly. kind of all makes sense does it not?

therefor, reading is food for the soul~

i've come up with some characters in my head during school:

-the goddess of fate-
appearance: a young girl
job: ties the strings of people together
note: occasionally she blunders of maybe out of playfulness she ties nasty knots and creates messed up relationships. a lose knot results in a not very solid relationship.

-the manifestation of sin-
appearance: probably something ugly, real ugly
job: supposingly creates havoc
note: it really is the creation of mankind's sins. aka, the devil. thus, evil is but the product of mankind's sinful actions.

my creativity seems to be back. i'd better start writing down the stuff i think up or i'll lose 'em all which would be quite a waste now wouldn't it be =)

FUCK, forgot to hand in DNT stuff, i am so fucking sorry sining, i tried, but i couldn't find ms yun's locker, i am a noobster, i admit... TT^TT

still feeling ill, maybe i'll not go school tomorrow... i WiSH LEH. ......

2009-04-22T11:40:00.001+08:00

colourcloud palace
shonen onmyoji
chronicles of tsubasa
cardcaptor sakura
spooky kitaro
ranma 1/2
kyou kara maou 3rd season
jigoku shoujo mitsuganae
monochrom factor

and much more i wanna complete or start :D

tribute to 15 year old me :D

2009-04-22T11:17:00.002+08:00

song of this name is Haikei Juugo No Kimi E, to my 15 year old self.
dumb but yeah, it's happening. i made a tribute to 15 year old me :D oh right, i'm not 15 yet, few more months lah, few more months lah. momentai momentai [nope, it wasn't japanese, it was cantonese xD] still sick. tomorrow have oral presentation, stage frightened me + sore throat me = SiLENCE... please let me off~

sick and dying...

2009-04-21T12:04:00.002+08:00

fever, running nose, sore throat, bodyache. not dying then what? and yesterday i was complaining about not feeling well and yet it's not bad enough to stay home and rest. i'm sorry sining, causing you to lose another point.

probably no one's going to notice my absence, it's always like that, and when other people get sick, i am tasked with making cards for them, birthday cards too. will anyone ever remember me? guess not.

so cuuute, bernice is also sick. and i didn't come into direct contact with her yesterday too? telepathy virus transfer :D ...

a women's heart is complicated.

2009-04-17T21:15:00.006+08:00

french or maybe english gentlemen & nihonjin hime sama

sobbing girl, HANDSOME BiJiN and kimono girl

random characters i cam up with random names. i really like richard~

majou and hime sama?

inspired by 'the secret of the rose'. from left to right, robin, rosalind/richard, master marlowe?

tenshin to dancer

a character i originally wanted to use for a story with which later i got tired of then a random bijin and ojou san.

benisu flared up and teared at my tardiness. just for that. ... she is full of surprises.

a person's heart is complicated much less a woman's. gentle like the breeze yet viscious like the worst venom on earth. it comes without warning too. sigh.

ps: the school is quite the slave driver, making use of the seemingly slack guides. stop telling us we're slack, other than footdrill and pumpings we serve as part time school servants or rather slaves too okay so thank us!

pss: the above images are for benisuu's reference for her character's for her manga.

2009-04-16T23:17:00.002+08:00

tomorrow is yet another day. long yet short. sutdy till 10am slave till midnight... stupid AA thing, tell us we're not involved and yet we have to do ushering. someone please check up the meaning of 'not involved'. just finished watching howl's moving castle, again. bestest movie. a good movie's one you never get tired of watching. spirited away was good too. have yet to finish all the ghibli movies but soon =) yays, we have animax now. whoopee. can watch more anime now and become anime pro rather than anime noobster. xD

ehh? it would seem we have more channels than expected. there's all the taiwanese stuff then there's NHK too. nande? i hope it doesn't change, i wouldn't mind more channels~ :D

2009-04-15T19:44:00.002+08:00

today stupid elephant drama kia lah. recess time hide behind the shelf then sit there emo. for a while people noticed then ignored him since after all, it was only elephant and all the drama had pretty much become a daily routine for us all, he started laughing by himself to attract attention. what an ass. he likes being the center of attraction doesn't he, very much like someone else i know... today i saw actual seifukus, i guess the japanese pull it off a lot better. now i realise why i've been brought up to dislike and avoid boys, especially when your sitting on the same row of chairs, the type that are connected. kachengitchy issit? cannot sit still, keep shaking. then there was lots of obscene conversations. sigh. i give up, fantasies are remedy for the disappointed soul, one who has lost hope in reality. FUCK sio. my phone der '1' spoil. my house has quite a history of stuff with buttons broken like our laptop, lost lots of buttons, my mum's previous phone, many buttons 'numb' diao then now my one which was like my mum's first phone or was it second one since she came back to singapore 7 years ago. ... hope i can get a new phone soon. PLEASE.

'want to fuck?!'

2009-04-15T00:22:00.003+08:00

stupid fucked up cop. spoil my impression of police. i had always thought them to be kind and patient, not crude and rude. nabe lanjiao kia, want fuck issit? i give you. -gives NBLJK the elephant and the chimp- now fuck on this! xDDD aww, FUCK -has picked up NBLJK's FUCKlish- tomorrow me has chinese test and i've yet to study for it because i was doing FUCKing english composition, truth is i really only had to copy it onto another piece of paper. i think i can pretty much understand why HR picks on SJ so much or why others dislike him so. it's his strange tendency to turn and stare at you. he just suddenly turns and looks at you like FUCK. sorry child, even the discrimination-hating pauline sama can't do anything for you, you'll just have to stop it. go stare at elephant's ass and chimp's cunt if you must.

pauline sama is down with a flu and if flu germs was a person i would've beat him to a pulp. NOW DiE YA DUMBASS FLU GERMS.

seeing him is like seeing a real-life bijin from my fantasy. kore was koi? this strange fangirlish excitement rushes out uncontrollably. -girly blush-

pauline sama has been researching on the teenagers of today and results have shown that many females have been infected by the FB disease.

symptoms of it include:
-the ever shortening of skirts till you can see their _ _
-tendency to bitch about every little thing
-ceaseless flirting
-backstabbing, bad mouthing

though pauline sama's studies seem similar to benisuu chi-aaan's Ultra-Magnificent-Super-Sparkly-Girly-Rabies i will assure that their studies are individual prpjects and are not related in any way.

another disease for the males is FB, yes, as well, though FB stands for something else.

symptoms of it include:
-flashing of underpants
-tendency to bitch about every little thing
-dumbass conversation about sex and related.

this is a serious matter and actions should be taken otherwise society will continue to rot and mankind will meet its doom. do your part, help save mankind from total destruction.

I SO DAMN DER WANT A HOWL sama TOO~

heartfelt =) JOE HISAISHI SENSEI~ GOGOGO

2009-04-12T21:54:00.004+08:00

the songs the GHiBLi movies are DAMN DAMN DEE NiCE. a gift for mee beloveds~

life is tough, it a a long and arduous journey but it is not one that we can just choose to discontinue. everyday we try our best to live it to the fullest, to leave wonderful, even sad, memories, to make our presence known and remembered even long after we've finished our journey here. if there's one thing that ever makes our journey seems worth it all, it would be that simple act of kindness, that compassion, that love. it could just be a smile to make your whole life worth the pain and sufferings. and yet this may not be enough for many of the people out there suffering from the lack of appreciation for what they have. living in a life filled with their endless desires has erased their appreciation for the things they have.

i just lovelovelove klaha's music. at the camp, it was hot and stuffy plus noisy too but after listening to his calming songs for a while, i felt sleepy and the air felt cool, i fell right asleep. there was once at home i was feeling sleepless too only to fall right asleep with my earphones still in my ears. :D klaha san's music cures insomnia~

PONYO PONYO~

2009-04-12T19:58:00.001+08:00

PONYO CRAZE~! fine, then the craze has worn off but no pain in enjoying the song is there? and so we learn the mysterious 'ponyo voice'. cuute sio. truly japanese. finished watching grave of the fireflies. once again, it touches the very bottom of my heart and soul and me corny speech is acting up. me love GHiBLi~! it would seem they're working on more movies. can't wait can't wait.

I WANNA WATCH DMC AND HANDSOME SUIT~!

2009-04-12T00:10:00.001+08:00

honey senpai's voice is by a girl. the voice actors are far from what i had hoped for... reality's like that...

me is big fan of STUDiO GHiBLi

2009-04-11T23:57:00.002+08:00

i am a mega BIGBIGBIG MEGA DER SHUUUPER fan of STUDIO GHIBLI. today i watched three movies of theirs. howl's moving castle, which i've watched before long time ago, princess mononoke, 1st time and LAPUTA the castle in the sky. i simply adore their works as they come up with such wonderful stories that make me wish i was part of it all. it's so dreamyly romantic. i wish it was all part of my reality. maybe monday i could have a bikei transfer student come in who really is some sort of wizard and then and then... yeahh, that kinda thing.

today for once i did all my maths homework, with the help of my tuition teacher that is. lesson learnt: ask and you shall be answered. you must have that quest for knowledge to learn and so i learnt =) damn proud. i feel like i deserve a kiss from Mana sama ^\\\\^;

2009-04-10T12:05:00.002+08:00

not meant to be racist or something, just a note of the current society. so evil sio.

right, today's GOOD FRiDAY.

eating breakfast/lunch now. it's 1:03pm now. added too much chili. hard time finish the mountain. ... i feel like a mega retardist now. watching NANA 2 now. load so slow. damn. ... oh well, free is liddat der lah~

retardist~

2009-04-09T17:03:00.002+08:00

刚刚尝试完了有家不可贵的感觉。
要怪就怪我笨，
没带手机没带钥匙。
最后在租屋楼下喂苍蝇蚊子。
去你的死苍蝇蚊子，
我要把你们通通灭掉！
脚好癢
脚好癢
脚好癢
脚好癢
脚好癢
刚才在楼下有几位马来同胞。
两位又大又壮，
满身都是刺刺青，
好恐怖。
恨不得想逃掉跑到个角落去躲。

今天在可是就像平时一样的无聊。
老师们个个都照样唠叨了一大堆听不进的废话，
某些人也照样的吵闹，
都不知道他们几岁还这样闹。
真是丢人献脸。
不怪的我们是‘全级最糟的班级’，
真得感谢那些混蛋。

我对那八婆在此充满愤怒，
讨厌死她了。
‘美女’们其实还真的只不过是爱漏的小伞吧。
是的，
我对外表漂亮却内心丑陋的人有仇。
小三八，
给我小心一点，
总有一天你会被我的‘正义之剑’而刺死的。
我会毁了你=）

-转换到CHANNEL5-

okay. back to english. if only ms yue would stop comparing and nagging maybe we could be as good or even better than those little E1 ding dongs. seriously it's pretty much her fault she likes wasting her precious periods on petty stuff like that. tomorrow is GOOD FRiDAY, i will be nice and speak nice only. the ever evil and painful truth shall resume on 12 midnight of 10 april.

he looks no much older than my primary three brother and is probably not much taller either and he can say stuff like making cunts out of paper mache and licking it. how could he. in front of a lday too. obviously i know at times people like to take me as invisible. ... how dare they do this to the all great pauline sama... if he was my little brother i'd whack sense into his liddle numbskull. wanna lick cunt? i'll give you that sex-obsessed hentai elephant's ass for you to lick xD. enjoy and no need to thank me. granting a classmate's wish is but my duty now isn't it?

sex-obsessed hentai has indeed [indirectly] confessed to being a hentai and being obsessed with those kinda 'show all' anime girls. someone, slap him please and dip him in cow dung. thank you.

i think i really respect mr pon, he's a nice guy really, it's just all the student's indiosyncrosy getting to him that makes him easily angered. little kids like some asses will never understand art and will only think of PORN. dumb me, so rush this morning forgot there was art. oh well. ended up doing 'apple day' card. DUMB. this mrs wong so much idea, so smart do for me lah. don't try to teach me, an art master. ...

mrs tan's lesson was interesting, not really her and her teachings but the student's 'wisdom'. rance, like all other still in the process of growing up be it mentally or physically, ending up changing mrs tan's SWEETiE PiE CUP of TEA PLEASE to SUCK PENiS COCK TESTiS PLEASE~ or something like that. very creative... i think. maybe. -doubtful- oh well. i seriously think rance is what you would call a 'lazy genius', nope, not because of the suck something something something please thing but because many teachers have commented on his GOOD work. how he writes well and has nice writing. makes me jealous. i slave like a water buffalo and yet i'm nowhere near his work filled with slackery. ... damn, life's not fair, it's never fair.

‘在乌云密布的天空中，
我偶然在那一瞬间看到了天堂，看到了希望，
这表明了生活不只是充满了黑暗的。。。’
- almighty pauline sama.

i seriously saw heaven today. don't believe, ask benisu chi-aaan~ she saw it to and can testify for me :D

on me way back, i saw a couple, probably in their teens, both smoking a cigarette each. seems like a date. now i learnt the new pastime for dates, no more movies and arcades, it's just sit on a bench in the neighbourhood and smoke silently. times are changing and so it the way of romance ;D

2009-04-09T00:35:00.002+08:00

好困哦。
好想睡觉。
等我看完花样第四集吧。
哦我的天呀，
数学功课原本打算要边看边做可是我厉害，
懒得做，
最后连碰都没有碰。
明天又要摆脱SHiNiNG了。
不一会儿前，
我开始阅读花样的英文漫画。
在网上阅读很快就会觉得闷了。
哦，
瑞稀被哥哥发现她念的是男校了。XDDD
算了，
明天才继续看吧。
明天早上早点起来冲个凉，
舒服舒服一下，
比较清醒，
精神也比较好。
好了，
现在我真的要在此停笔。
拜拜。

hana kimi-edd again.

2009-04-08T21:59:00.004+08:00

and the following above is the cast for hana kimi japan. the taiwan cast, you should be more than familiar with it.

i really feel like reading the manga. but not the soft copy scanned one. i want the real thing. where to buy. anyone know? preferably english. the japanese cast is more shuai. me likey. taiwan one more funny. both just as loved. but somehow i don't like both casting for Sano. i like shiuchi then the Nanba senpai for both is nice too. Nakao for both are cute, as in their acting and stuff, not their looks. i like Taiki, more of the japanese one though but a chord is cuute lah. come to think of it. a chord reminds me of hui rong. that face.... xD

shinsengumi lubu~

2009-04-07T22:29:00.003+08:00

current wallpaper. romantic ne? inuyasha was my first love~ oh the nostalgia~!

peacemaker kurogane is LOVE-EDD

Ouran Host Bu's ver. of shinsengumi is just as LOVE-EDD >.<

lemme see. damn annoyed with sex-craze elephant. 'trying to make it bigger' -shoveshove, shoveshove.- you want bigger? i'll give you bigger, i'll make your asshole so big you could shove ten other of the same species as you up that hole xDDD.

today i saw powerpuff girls during morning assembly. mr boo - bubbles [blue] mr sin - buttercup [green]and mr cheng - blossom [red]. they were wearing similar stone-washed long-sleeved collared shirts. hard to believe they didn't arrange before hand.

wanted to do maths but i couldn't undertsand a peep of it. shining san, yoroken desu~ ^^||| science, busy revising, i think, watching hana kimi [TW] for the third time xD.

BALL-LESS FREAK to hell you go.

2009-04-06T22:44:00.003+08:00

just thought it'll do good for me to upload one of these too. like WTF's the logic in that xD.

damn you ball-less fuckstard. no balls say no balls. stupid logic of 'according to register number'. damn you. won't name you. your name's not worth me saying and not worth me typing out either. least i be tainted by your retardism. byebye dumbass. you're going DOWN.

wakao. didi's are definitely troublesome.

2009-04-06T20:49:00.003+08:00

as usual my art notes are on the art itself.

i came up with this whilst listening to VELVET EDEN. music gives me different moods and emotions. imma puppet of my music xD. people pursue perfectionism even though somewhere deep down they now as humans, we're all imperfect in some way. so here it is, a perfect woman in the making xD. nice body, pretty hair, well defined features, good personality, everything one would hope to be.

hectic day. emotional breakdown. tired. loads of obligations. highly sucidal. dying, dying, died. and to think i was going to post something heartfelt earlier on. =.=|||

my didi apparently had a fever and didn't go for tuition. i prepared dinner and he took 2 fucking hours to finish it. then another half hour to eat his fruits then his medicine then doze of on the floor. this is the second time i had an emotional breakdown and took part of it all on myself. his fault.

here comes the heartfelt stuff [written by 'white' pauline]:

prefering introvertism, it is difficult for me to make new friends. i truly wish to be able to get along with everyone and become good friends with you all. at times i may seems indifferent but it really is me feeling lost and not knowing the right way to react/respond. i apologise if i have directly/indirectly offended anyone, upset anyone or anything. whilst i try to improve myself and my character i do hope you all can be understanding and show me the ropes. [even though imma fucking 10,000 years older than ya arses xD -'black' pauline]

nownow, what the fuck issit with all that crap. no idea.