Sunday, 12 July 2009
yesterday i woke up from a dream that my mum was dead and was crying my eyes out. this is the second time i remember waking up crying. the first time was abuse from a somehow familiar teacher. this time i think i was somehow influenced by Paris' speach and her plight. goshh.
friday i was retained by mr chia for not doing work. when he realised i was an f9-er in maths he somehow seemed shocked. hey, not everyone was made to be a maths teacher kkay? he couldn't make me stay and complete it because mine was completely blank and it'd take forever for me to finish lol.
finally sgclub's up again. i saw this really pretty blouse and am interested in getting it but that'd mean my wallet would be completely emptied. 'to be or not to be, that is the question...' goshh.
hooked to facebook games. started of with fashion wars then vampire wars. ms isabel's fault lahh. i guess i like the feeling of 'earning money' lol.
yesterday i made my didi wear my mum's nightdress and wig again and he looked as cute as ever. as a boy he never seemed that way. i guess i should just convert him to a girl. lol.
i am a malfunctioning human who has lost all trace of confidence during childhood and is now lost in this unknown place. someone save me from this misery. i wish i had the balls to open up and be what i really am. it gets tiring holding back all my emotions and thoughts. last thursday, i believe, it was ms yue's class and my bladder was bursting and she just kept talking and talking without the sign of ever stopping and i just couldn't seem to find that chance to jump in and ask for the toilet pass. see what lack of confidence does to you. it's worse than you think.
my mum... is dead? @ 14:31
