Friday, 3 July 2009
as i promised, myself..., to post this rammed frog picture. please avoid looking at it if you happen to be eating ;P
kire deshou~?
STOP ya asshole! xD
smexilicious hyde sama as seen in ageha
left - pauline, right - Mana sama. 6////6
did more research on MJ. sigh. i got all his songs yay. teehee. -proud-
some asshole taunted me, AGAIN. maybe, idk, paranoia is killing me, can't help to think their 'courtesy' is evil teasing. i wish i had more confidence then maybe i would fit in better... sometimes i wish i could just explain to the world that i'm not unsociable, just overly shy and take damn long to warm up to my surroundings. i'm sorry i couldn't be a better classmate. f-lah. why am i apologising for what i am, look at the other people. yesterday went to Brina's house to supposingly help out with the history project. sorry i'm so useless. her house damn big. my aspiration: to have my very own nest. her house nice, almost got lost finding my way back though. i also found out what kinda stuff normal sociable girls talk about: the boys in class. lol. i felt old listening to them. gosh, i feel aged beyond my years. today was height and weight checking, result, okay. weight, unchanged and SECRET :X, height, i grew taller by 2cm, 165 is the least i must have, so 4cm more. this week when i came back to class, while lining up, i felt like i was lost in a forest with all the tall guys blocking me. seriously, i don't understand why boys have to grow so tall for. i know breasts are for breast-feeding should the time come but their height i don't understand the purpose. MJ's neverland is so cool. a while back i was afraid of growing up too, i wanted to go back to being a child like as though i'm already grown up. i think i should get my head checked. i have worries and thoughts of a grown adult even though i am somewhere in the prime of my youth who's supposed to be doing crazy things with my 'girlfriends' like all others. sigh. GOD save my soul. release me from my OLDness.
ps: today i was late and got detention, AGAIN. one my way to school i saw the place where i would always take the lift up to my grandma's house barricaded and there was this tent as shown on tv used for covering corpses. maybe its gone now but i got scared. with the height of that building it could've been death from falling over. idk. i hope it comes out on the newspaper because i need to know after all i will be going to my grandma's house sooner or later...
pps?/pss?/ppss?: my work is in a mess. all undone and messed up. i'mma DOOMED.
im old. too old... @ 16:20
as i promised, myself..., to post this rammed frog picture. please avoid looking at it if you happen to be eating ;P
kire deshou~?
STOP ya asshole! xD
smexilicious hyde sama as seen in ageha
left - pauline, right - Mana sama. 6////6