i came up with this whilst listening to VELVET EDEN. music gives me different moods and emotions. imma puppet of my music xD. people pursue perfectionism even though somewhere deep down they now as humans, we're all imperfect in some way. so here it is, a perfect woman in the making xD. nice body, pretty hair, well defined features, good personality, everything one would hope to be.

hectic day. emotional breakdown. tired. loads of obligations. highly sucidal. dying, dying, died. and to think i was going to post something heartfelt earlier on. =.=|||

my didi apparently had a fever and didn't go for tuition. i prepared dinner and he took 2 fucking hours to finish it. then another half hour to eat his fruits then his medicine then doze of on the floor. this is the second time i had an emotional breakdown and took part of it all on myself. his fault.

here comes the heartfelt stuff [written by 'white' pauline]:

prefering introvertism, it is difficult for me to make new friends. i truly wish to be able to get along with everyone and become good friends with you all. at times i may seems indifferent but it really is me feeling lost and not knowing the right way to react/respond. i apologise if i have directly/indirectly offended anyone, upset anyone or anything. whilst i try to improve myself and my character i do hope you all can be understanding and show me the ropes. [even though imma fucking 10,000 years older than ya arses xD -'black' pauline]

nownow, what the fuck issit with all that crap. no idea.