Thursday, 9 October 2008
finally, the exams are over. i know, i didn't do very well and the chances that i stay back one year or drop to n(a) or even n(t) is VERYVERYVERY high but now that it's over, there's no point worrying over it like shit. all i can do now is work hard next year and do better next time. seeing all my classmates fretting over the questions just after the test makes me a bit guilty and yet wonder what's the big deal, doesn't matter since it's a for sure thing that all of you scored so muchyy bette than me. i feel that our life span is like only a short 60-70 years, why live it like a slave doing things you don't like and worrying about every single cockroach out there <-- [i am joking about the cockroaches]. i want to live life as i wish and do as i please [not bad and illegal stuff, don't worry] and do something meaningful, to me at least. no point wasting 1/7 of your life slogging away studying things you're not in the least interested in and worry about your employer's mood everyday for the rest of your working life. then, having to worry about whether your children will look after you in old age. i see so many pitiful old people out there. their children probably abandoned them or something and yet i can't do much because no.1, i'm just as poor and no.2, there's just too many of them to help. think about it, they spent their entire life taking care of you, working their guts out just so that you eat well, sleep well and get a god education and when you become older, you think, 'hey, i'm independent now, gimme money, i'll buy whatever i want and do as i please~' think about how the money was earned, think about the blood and sweat shed just to earn those few dollars. then when your parents become old, you find them a bother and send them away to an old folks' home or even, forget about them completely and leave them to fend for themselves. those people who do these things, where's your conscience? eaten by the dogs? pitiful ugly souls... you deserve death.
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