Saturday, 27 September 2008
i yearn for a peaceful family. it doesn't matter that i'm poor, stupid, ugly, unpopular. as long as i have a warm family to go back to, it all doesn't matter. right now, i... i have nothing. not even a peaceful, warm family to go back to. with my mother always putting me down with discouraging words, about how i don't have a father, telling me to go back to the home, telling me what a pain we are, telling me how she never wanted us. i hate it. all of your mothers, they care too much about you. you have everything you want and more. i envy you all so much i want to kill you all. they send you to school, let you have whatever you want, make sure you sleep well. i don't mind that i don't have everything i want, i just want a peaceful family with a gentle non-violent mother.
if you see this post, please do not try to send me to some counsellor thinking that it would help me. i just want you to think about how lucky you are. to have what i don't have...
i yearn for... @ 10:48
