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愛好

visual kei~
Mana sama
gothic & lolita
manga & anime ikemen~

嫌悪

pigeons...

願望

-MAC
-lots of vkei posters
-own room
-work in the creative industry (fashion, music, hair & makeup, manga, writer...)
-MANA SAMA~!
-migrate to japan
-EGA & EGL platforms
-closet full of moi meme moitie's, sex pot revenge and etc.
-find my place on earth otherwise go back to saturn with my hubby
-entire collection of junjou romantica~! EEEK! ecchi~

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我对你怎么好，你却对我冷漠。你，是把我给忘了吗？你，是觉得和我在一起很累，不想见到我了？你怎么可以对我怎么的残酷，就这样把我推开。这样我还真希望不懂得亲情，不懂得友情，因为感情的事实在是太复杂，常常让我心碎，让我心疼。。。

@ 16:12

it's difficult being in a world where there is not only you, where you have to take others into consideration. having a brother too is a pain. i've been told not to hit him many times but, have you ever wondered why i end up hitting him? obviously because i've reached my limit. the feeling is unbearable, to have to control yourself and smile and be nice while the other person refuses to be cooperative. it feels like i am going to explode. a very horrid feeling if you ask me. sometimes i end up hitting myself too. then i get headaches. it really is... intolerable.

having a brother... @ 23:35

i just did a blingee of Mana sama like yesterday and now i've done a MagMyPic of him. i just love him so much and i wanna those pair of earings he's wearing. they seem so beautiful and simple~ sad he doesn't sell it online.

i am obsessed... @ 17:02

惊喜。 我现在要用华语来BLOG。很有趣。我希望这样可以提高我的华文程度。我才不要输给那个狗屁姓王叫八蛋的某人。还有那个一直说我讲话很粗鲁的人，你给我小心。。讲话粗鲁的不是我，是你呀。每次在我面前‘他妈的’，‘他爸的’。 真是的。这样像话吗？我呢，用写的才算粗鲁，那你很斯文是吗？你在我面前每次都骂脏话我都还没说你呢。还有，每次说别人的坏话，你羞不羞耻呀你。'DO UNTO OTHERS WHAT YOU WANT OTHERS TO DO UNTO YOU.' <-- 这个原则我觉得是其中最好的一个。随便啦，我大人不计小人过，放你一条生路走。还有啊，你想想，我一直以来有没有说过你的坏话呀，有没有骂过你的妈呀？你以后在我面前讲话不要怎么粗好马？

我写的一首歌。这个，我在部落各早已写过了可是。。。 没关系啦。喜欢就写多一遍喽。。。

YELLOW AND GREEN
BLUE AND PINKKK~~~
放个臭屁臭死[名]
EVERYBODY HAPPY/大家都很开心
EVERYBODY HAPPY/大家都很开心~~~

现在我感到非常地《无聊》。 没事做可是又懒得温习功课。现在正在吃宵夜，CHEESE炒饭。 很棒吧。是我硬逼我的老妈子做给我吃的。如果我每次都吃宵夜，肯定会变成大肥猪呀。不过也无所谓，我没那么在乎形象（我根本就没有形象吗）又何况胖嘟嘟的也满可爱的嘛。你说是不是呀？

哎哟，怎么办呀，相机的电池不管怎样充，它的电就是充不满。手机不只坏了，现在还在家里弄不见了。想修也修不了啦。真是可无需。。。

嗨~ 大家好。。。 @ 23:57

ZOMG. j-gurl robot in tokyo japan. waseyy. look so real lehx. i thought was a real girl acting as a robot but NO. it really iS a robo-gurl.



another freakinly freaky actroid. ZOMG. in a few more years you wouldn't even be able to difference between humans and robots. humans will be replaced by robots too.

Actroid @ 20:39

unhappii and yet a wee bit happii @ 19:48

STRONG MACHiNE


KAZUMi - elastic gurl


POLYSiCS - I MY ME MiNE

AWESOME VIDEOS. DO WATCH.

AWESOME ViDEOS. DO WATCH. @ 00:39

HE IS MiNE~ MiNE~ MiNE~

MWUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...~~

HE'S MiNE i'M TELLiNG YOU @ 21:26

1.The person who tag/pass you is - Aishwarya

2.Your relationship with him/her is - G00D friends~

3.Your five impression of him/her - Very helpful, smart, polite, whoo~ from a good school, nothing like the lazy me :X

4.The most memorable thing he/she had done for you - giving me g00d luck wishes and friendly reminders to do homework

5.The most memorable thing he/she had said to you - g00d luckk~

6.If he/she become your lover,you will - ermm. must i answer this question? i am straight so please dun think 'Y'

7.If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be - dun be so smart? makes me feel stupid. LOL

8.If he/she become your enemy,you will - fight her till death. LOL. highly impossible

9.If he/she become your enemy,the reason will be - idk...

10.The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is - shout a big THANK YOU to her [till she goes deaf :X]

11.Your overall impression of him/her is - she's a nice person [i didn't know that in the past :X]

12.How you think people around you will feel bout you? - dunno duncare. such things, best not bother about it too much

13.The characters you love of yourself are - artistic~ lol. not really lahh.

14.On the contrary,the characters you hate yourself are - i'm so SOK people talk to me i can easily lose track and fall into another dimension causing me not to know what they're talking about ==''

15.The most ideal person you want be is - a person as successful, beautiful and talented as my Mana sama~

16.For people that care and like you - yeah peeps, i care and love you too~

17.Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel bout u

1: berNiCE
2: pamela
3. yufang
4: yvonne
5. liwern
6. avril
7. huiirong
8. weiting
9. aishwarya [yo~ i wanna know what you thinka 'bout mee~]
10. kei kun~

18.Who is [no.6] having relationship with? [avril] - ehh. dunno???

19.Is [no.9] a male or female? [aishwarya] - lol. she's a feMALE

20.If [no.7 & 10] are together,will it be a good thing? [huiirong & kei kun] - long distance relationship between 2 strangers... interesting~

21.What is [no.2] studying about? [pamela] - judging from her character, she's probably eating/sleeping/watching drama/playing maple

22.When was the last time you had a chat with [no.3]? [yufang] - recently only exchanged a few words. not considered a conversation i guess. had a quarrel i guess.

23.What kind of music does [no.8] like? [weiting] - dunno. probably some new chinese pop song. bleukk.

24.Does no.1 have any siblings? [berNiCE] - only child. so luckky~

25.Will you woo [no.3]? [yufang] - ermm. NO?

26.How about [no.7]? [huiirong] - hmm. maybe? she's damn nice and sweet marhs~

27.Is no.4 single? [yvonne] - who knows~

28.What is the surname of [no.5]? [liwern] - poon~ [i think. OMG. i dunno~]

29.What's the hobby of [no.10]? [kei kun] - singing as Kaya~ LALALALALALALALALA~

30.Does [no.5 & 9] get along well? [liwern & aishwarya] - they dunno each other

31.Where is [no.2] studying at? [pamela] - i dunno. HEY! i'm not a stalker okayy?

32.Talk something casually about [no.1] [LaurA] - she's nice, but damn UN-enthu, makes me feel like an idiot when i'm doing something crazyy...

33.Have you tried developing feelings for [no.6]? [avril] - ermm. NOPE?

34.Where does [no.9] live at? [aishwarya] - in singapore like DUHH~!!!

35.What colous does [no.4] like? [yvonne] - i have NO idea~

36.Are [no.5 & 1] best friends? [berNiCE & liwern] - though both of similar interests, they seem planets away.

37.Does [no.1] have any pets? [berNiCE] - a hamster with skin disease. you know? he's got these lumps all over his body and he looks very pathetic, it's really sad...

38.Is [no.7] the sexiest person in the world? [huiirong] - ermm, compared to my Mana sama, NO. but she is sexyy~ got a lotta a lotta boys after her lehx.

39.What is [no.6] doing now? [avril] - living life?

QUiZZ~! @ 19:36

i yearn for a peaceful family. it doesn't matter that i'm poor, stupid, ugly, unpopular. as long as i have a warm family to go back to, it all doesn't matter. right now, i... i have nothing. not even a peaceful, warm family to go back to. with my mother always putting me down with discouraging words, about how i don't have a father, telling me to go back to the home, telling me what a pain we are, telling me how she never wanted us. i hate it. all of your mothers, they care too much about you. you have everything you want and more. i envy you all so much i want to kill you all. they send you to school, let you have whatever you want, make sure you sleep well. i don't mind that i don't have everything i want, i just want a peaceful family with a gentle non-violent mother.

if you see this post, please do not try to send me to some counsellor thinking that it would help me. i just want you to think about how lucky you are. to have what i don't have...

i yearn for... @ 10:48

I'M GONNA MAKE YOUR KIND GO EXTINCT. READ IT-->E-X-T-I-N-C-T~~~
i go out a while only let you all bitebitebitebitebite like ****. bl00dy itchin' now der lor. >.<

LOL. guess what i was doing just now. i was tuning the damn tv to get the okto channel. dumb but true. actually i dun givva damn about it but since i was free, i thought i'd tune it and see if i can get it. i'm a pro and got it. haha. thank you for the applause~

now is 8.25pm. damn bored and tired. maybe i go napnap.

review on ytd's 'dance' show:
OMG. suck-ish der lor. even the mR. lathan behind fell asleep watching. the 3 musketeers watch so intently. because can see shorts [very small and tight], can see cleavage [2nd dance], can see everything [third dance]. i see liao BUEY TAHAN. wanna get them off the stage. the beatty dancers though more covered, still also is suck-ish. repeated steps, used in many of their dances [no creativity :X]. aiyah. the school wanna kill us with suck-ish dances issit? gun show. okok nia. but at least better than the dances. song, used many times. no other techno songs to use meh? =='

effin' MOSQUiTOES @ 18:26

i'm planning to buy this pair of shoes. it's second hand and going to cost me $40. copmments? nice? a slight bit damaged. in the second photo you can see bits of scratches. but i guess it'll have to do right? if i buy a new pair, it's gonna cost me $80. i'm gonna get it after 24th october, after my birthday, during the holidays. waah. so excite. only thing is my wallet's gonna suffer.

red shoes for me~!! @ 21:09

wahlan~<-- is this vulgar? wahlao~<-- is this vulgar? same. why she can say 'ma der ma der' all the time to me and i cannot 'wahlan' and 'fcuk' on her facebook account? i don't even shout it out. she, yells it to me ALL THE TiME. delete me lah~ i dun giva damn. she was the one who started calling me a retard 1st hor. i only told her to shudda fcuk up and stop calling me such and she wanna lecture me about being vulgar.

see this:

i'LL SHOW YOU VULGAR @ 16:33

OMGOMGOGM~ *blushblush*

- Smack Kei - 景 - 异世界 - says:
WHAHAHAAH hey look like me sia!
- Smack Kei - 景 - 异世界 - says:
how come
- Smack Kei - 景 - 异世界 - says:
look like leh
- Smack Kei - 景 - 异世界 - says:
ure a good artist

he just saw my get well 'card' and praised me~ im like on cloud 100 liao lor. MWUAHAHAHA. u all still on cloud nine only. bleuhs. *heart flutter flutter* i still feel very apologetic about not being to go to the event on saturday. BL00DY TUiTiON. =.= make me miss kenn senpai's event. TTATT

I AM BL000DY HAPPii @ 23:59

OMG. dat bl00dy okto pan labyrinth ad thing freaks me out der lor. eewww. dat alien thing-a-ma-jig eww... =='

WHAT DAA FCUK~ @ 22:14

TTATT. kenn senpai is STiLL sick. :@ iF YOU DON'T RECOVER SOON i'M GONNA GO TO YOUR HOUSE AND MAKE GREEN BEAN SOUP FOR YOU~! lol. but i scared i too paiseyy to let you drink my green bean soup.

sigh. so many homework due tomorrow. gonna die man. english, chinese, maths blablabla. ohya~!! still have the bloody cme poem. ==' diao.

mm... kenn senpai~ TTATT i can't attend the event on saturday because i have bloody tuition. TTATT. i'm like never able to attend any of the events.

today in class, my observation is that *** ***** **** is either really gay or he's just one big drama queen :X [king]. when i turn my head casually and see him, he's always doing something stupid/funny. makes me wanna throw wet toilet paper at him. lol. then it can 'splat' and stick onto him. wet toilet paper. brings back the memories. when i was still in primary school i would throw wet toilet paper up the toilet ceiling and it would stick then dry then never come out. maybe i should try my tricks at beatty :X. today i made staple, [what do you call it?] i dunno, things you put on the chair for others to sit on. it's supposed to hurt your arse like hell but in the past i've tried it on some people but probably they've got arses made of iron and so it doesn't hurt. today i made some and placed them on ******'s chair for revenge but yu fang, dunno if there's really something between them two, insisted that i not do it. 6_6??? maybe. :X. i ain't no said anything and you ain't no saw anything so keep mum~. okaees?

kenn senpai~ pls recover soon. you worry me so~!! @ 18:48

eternal silence by Phantasmagoria
dedicated to all mee friends out there. yes. including you. doesn't matter that you don't take me as friend. i'm just looking to live in harmony with all the people out there.

this song, is one of my favourites. it gets me all the time. a truly beautiful song. you don't agree, don't tell me, i dun wanna know. waah. recently everyone offline so early. maybe it's just me. lol. maybe it's because the exams are nearing. i don't know. i'm still busy living my crazy schedule. sleep in the afternoon till 8++ 9++ pm then use computer until probably 2-4am. lol. wassit the fan? today my eyes felt bloody dry and couldn't open WiDE. last night i slept at 4am so i slept for one more hour befored going to school. recently i've been looking through ashley's videos. must sya they're pretty good. lol. not that it's content really interests me. i think she could possibly become the next XiaXue. become a famous blogger and have lots of videos then maybe earn from them. i think maybe i'm going to change the blogskin or maybe change the picture only. whatever it is, i'll have it customized to suit my love for visual kei~! that's for sure. i'm going to change it to a Phantasmagoria picture. though disbanded (which is really a really sad thing), they still rawk me with their beautiful music.

for you~ @ 23:36

w00t~ Gazetto NEW SiNGLE~ *heart flutters* glad that they are new songs. hmm. been a bit emo-istic today. mee Kenn senpai is sick. but he did great for the performance today~ hmm... but nvm der. mee Kenn senpai is POWERR~ sure kenna pass and get into the next round. i wonder if his fever has subsided. shoshosho funny. ytd he told me about all sorts of things about sam. so sam actually likes hoggin' the limelight. always wanna sing so that the camera can shoot him. -eating japanese steamed egg now- lol. nvr thot sam was such a person. then Kenn senpai also told me that he likes attention and does exaggerating things to get attention. always likes to stand in front too. but i guess he can't help it either. he's short~ LOL.

BLOODY LATHAN~> if you think you can get away with knocking me with the ball, you're wrong. because of you widdle arse hole, my spectacles feel out of place. I'LL KILL YOU~

ethe'Real BANZAii~ Kenn senpai~!!! RECOVERR! @ 23:10

gazette interview. from long ago...

1. Date of Birth
Ruki	1st February 1982
Uruha	9th June
Aoi	20th January
Reita	27th May
Kai	28th October
2. Blood type
Ruki	B
Uruha	O
Aoi	A
Reita	A
Kai	B
3. Place of birth
Ruki	Shounan (this is in Kanagawa prefecture, Kantou; east Japan)
Uruha	Kanagawa prefecture
Aoi	Mie prefecture
Reita	Kanagawa prefecture
Kai	Tokyo
4. Height / Weight
Ruki	Don't know. Not saying.
Uruha	177cm / 62kg
Aoi	171cm / 55kg
Reita	172cm / 55kg
Kai	172cm / 55kg
5. Foot (shoe) size
Ruki	25.5 cm
Uruha	27.5 cm
Aoi	26 cm
Reita	26cm
Kai	26 cm
6. Family structure
Ruki	Myself, Mother, Father, Older brother, Sabuchan (dog) who passed away
Uruha	Father, Mother, 2 older sisters, 2 nephews
Aoi	Father, Mother, Older sister, Older brother, me
Reita	Grandmother, Mother, Older sister
Kai	Mother, Grandmother, Others omitted
7. After being born, what was your first memory? (the oldest one)
Ruki	Was swinging an Ultraman vinyl doll around
Uruha	Often hid inside my mother's skirt
Aoi	The place where I ate snacks with relatives
Reita	Falling from the bullet train
Kai	Bumping my head on the corner of the shouji screen.
8. As a child, what did you want to be?
Ruki	Fireman
Uruha	Soccer Player
Aoi	Bike Racer
Reita	Soccer Player
Kai	Soccer Player
9. Childhood nickname
Ruki	Taka-chan
Uruha	Shima
Aoi	There wasn't any
Reita	Ue-chan
Kai	Yukkun
10. Something that was often written about you on your report card
Ruki	"Hold your composure"
Uruha	"Do your best even at your worst subjects!"
Aoi	"There are lots of things you forget, so take care not to forget these things"
Reita	"Restless"
Kai	"An energetic, good child"
11. As a student, what was your music grade?
Ruki	2!
Uruha	2 in 5th grade
Aoi	4
Reita	2 in 5th grade
Kai	5
12. Best subject in school
Ruki	English and Japanese
Uruha	Art
Aoi	Home economics
Reita	Japanese
Kai	Mathematics, Current events
13. What school activities/clubs you participated in
Ruki	Golf (there is a reason)
Uruha	Soccer
Aoi	Baseball
Reita	Soccer
Kai	Soccer
14. What kind of person do people always say you are?
Ruki	Nervous
Uruha	My Pace
Aoi	They don't discuss it much.
Reita	Kind, restless
Kai	An interesting person
15. If you were to represent yourself with an animal, what would it be?
Ruki	You mean a dog? I'll shake my tail for you.
Uruha	A duck or a dog
Aoi	It's been said I'm like a fox.
Reita	Cheetah
Kai	Monkey
16. Strong point / weak point
Ruki	Too many
Uruha	Both at my own pace
Aoi	Looking after / Sulking
Reita	Gentle / Stubborn
Kai	Being positive / Forgetful
17. Something you definitely don't want to lose to
Ruki	The feeling of being negative about everything
Uruha	Street Fighter II
Aoi	A live
Reita	Face wrapping
Kai	A bullying character
18. What's the first thing you notice about a person?
Ruki	Face
Uruha	Heart
Aoi	Face & clothes
Reita	The whole appearance
Kai	Mouth
19. Your rival?
Ruki	A great person
Uruha	Myself
Aoi	My father
Reita	All of Gazette's band members
Kai	Reita
20. Who's a hero, in your opinion?
Ruki	Kewpie
Uruha	Ultraman. Baltan alien (from Ultraman)
Aoi	Parents
Reita	Takanori Hatakeyama (Japanese boxer)
Kai	Mother
21. Pick-up line
Ruki	I like you a lot! Kehe.
Uruha	I like you!
Aoi	I like you! (he says this in dialect)
Reita	I like you a lot so... will you go out with me?
Kai	Stick with me! (laugh)
22. If you could be another member for one day, who would you choose? (reason)
Ruki	No way.
Uruha	Kai, so I could make boxed lunches for everyone.
Aoi	I'm fine with being me.
Reita	Aoi, because he can speak 3 dialects.
Kai	Ruki, because I want to make his room dirty.
23. Habit
Ruki	When I don't realize that I am smiling bitterly inside
Uruha	Looking at people's faces and grinning
Aoi	Playing with my sideburns
Reita	Hitting the drum
Kai	Putting on a face
24. Something you always say
Ruki	Did you lose it? Ha........?
Uruha	Eh? Seriously?
Aoi	None.
Reita	None in particular...
Kai	Ha~!? Why~!? I wonder what it is~
25. My boom (current craze)
Ruki	Collecting hats. Turning my room into a Zakkaya (miscellaneous shop)
Uruha	Playstation 2
Aoi	Shopping a lot and anywhere
Reita	Collecting Sex Pistols goods
Kai	Kopan (a kind of pastry manufactured by Meiji)
26. Something popular among the members
Ruki	Winning Eleven (PS2 Soccer game)
Uruha	Teasing Kai
Aoi	Winning Eleven
Reita	Winning Eleven
Kai	Food
28. Tobacco brand
Ruki	Salem Pianissimo, Marlboro Menthol Light
Uruha	Marlboro Menthol Lights
Aoi	Marlboro Menthol
Reita	Mild Seven Lights
Kai	Marlboro Reds Box
29. Favorite brand
Ruki	shocker, THE GAMBLER$, PINK DRAGON
Uruha	PPFM
Aoi	Frois Tideur, Ozone
Reita	Back Street Crawler, Ozone Rocks
Kai	None in particular
30. Cologne you are using now
Ruki	CK-One
Uruha	I don't really know, present/souvenir from foreign country (America)
Aoi	Davidoff 's 'anything for men'
Reita	Bvlgari Pour Homme
Kai	Jaguar
31. Things you are collecting
Ruki	Hats. Patterned shirts
Uruha	Accessories
Aoi	Sunglasses, cologne, clothing, accessories
Reita	Everything Sex Pistols, like DVDs
Kai	Zippos
32. Food you like to eat
Ruki	Spaghetti
Uruha	Mentai croquette bentou from Origin Bentou
Aoi	Things made with love
Reita	Kit Kat, tarakosupa (cod roe mixed in spaghetti)
Kai	Bananas, Kopan, Nattou (fermented soybeans), mayonnaise
33. Food you dislike
Ruki	Green peppers, strawberry
Uruha	Olives
Aoi	Nothing
Reita	Vegetables, mushrooms, shellfish, Kai (He means Kai's cooking ^^;;)
Kai	Eggplant, Potato (taro, usually sweet)
34. Cooking specialty
Ruki	Spaghetti
Uruha	Taco rice
Aoi	Boiling rice
Reita	I cannot cook!!
Kai	Doria (baked rice, with cheese sauce and vegetables), omelette rice, pasta
35. What items must always in your refrigerator?
Ruki	?
Uruha	Cola
Aoi	Don't have a refrigerator
Reita	Barley tea, pudding
Kai	Mayonnaise
36. Favorite book
Ruki	WORST
Uruha	Silver Accessory Magazines
Aoi	Books to increase a guitarist's general knowledge
Reita	Kewpie
Kai	Hunter X Hunter, One Piece
37. A movie that moved you
Ruki	From the north country
Uruha	The Pianist
Aoi	'something' New York
Reita	John Q
Kai	I Am Sam
38. Drama which moved you
Ruki	Hakusen Nagashi
Uruha	Furikaereba yatsu ga iru (old movie)
Aoi	Don't watch dramas
Reita	Tokyo Love Story
Kai	The 101th proposal (This happens to be a very heart-warming drama; I highly reccommend it)
39. Favorite season (and reason)
Ruki	Winter. I can make songs
Uruha	Spring! It's warm and fuzzy...
Aoi	Winter
Reita	Spring, it's easy to live with that weather
Kai	Winter, I like Christmas
40. Daily living necessities
Ruki	Cigarettes, Cell phone
Uruha	Clothes
Aoi	Sunglasses, Cologne
Reita	Vitamin pills
Kai	Especially.... mayonnaise?
41. Your sleeping attire
Ruki	Soccer uniform
Uruha	In T shirt and boxers
Aoi	In T shirt and Jersey pants
Reita	Underwear
Kai	When no one is around, naked
42. The kind of license do you hold
Ruki	Motorcycle
Uruha	General
Aoi	Medium-sized automatic 2-wheeler (basically a bike), General automobile
Reita	General license (car)
Kai	none
43. The most expensive item purchased to date
Ruki	Can't remember
Uruha	Guitar
Aoi	Motorcycle
Reita	Car
Kai	Computer
44. If you didn't become a musician, what do you think you would be doing at this time?
Ruki	Employee at a clothes shop or work at general store
Uruha	Gamer
Aoi	Carpenter
Reita	Running a snack shop
Kai	Work at a restaurant
45. If you won the lottery, what would you spend the money on?
Ruki	Shop till I wanna die.
Uruha	I would get a clone made of myself! Uruha number 2.
Aoi	Buy a Mac and turn my house into a studio
Reita	Return money to my parents, after that buy equipment.
Kai	Save it
46. The biggest mischief you've gotten into to date
Ruki	I guess it's shoplifting
Uruha	In elementary school, I snuck into fishing shop early in the morning.
Aoi	I gave my friend a kanchou and used more strength than I thought. (this is uh... when someone comes up behind you and rams their fist into your butt... ;;>.>)
Reita	I threw rubbish under Ruki's bed.
Kai	I lied about my birthday.
47. Stage drink?
Ruki	Pocari Sweat
Uruha	Sport drink
Aoi	Water
Reita	Sport drink or something like that
Kai	Pocari
48. Your most frightening memory
Ruki	Haunted video. Cursed video.
Uruha	Being chased by the yakuza (japanese mafia)
Aoi	The time I photographed at hospital ruins
Reita	Watching a cursed video
Kai	Being frozen in fear
49. Favorite motto/saying
Ruki	(no answer)
Uruha	To be, be.
Aoi	Believe in yourself
Reita	If you try hard, you can do it
Kai	Killing two birds with one stone
50. Something others say about you that makes you happy
Ruki	"You're a good guy aren't you..."
Uruha	"If you accept me, I'll be happy"
Aoi	"Nice guitar play"
Reita	"He's wonderful, isn't he?"
Kai	"You're the best!!"
51. Experiences or Things that touched you
Ruki	Sometimes I get overwhelmed with joy when I sing Okuribi
Uruha	At the one-man live where everyone joined hands and jumped
Aoi	When everyone sang "Wakaremichi" at a Live
Reita	The first time I saw myself in a book
Kai	Receiving 1000 cranes when I was in hospital!
52. Type of woman you like
Ruki	A cute girl. A cute girl.
Uruha	Someone who holds herself well.
Aoi	Someone I can laugh with.
Reita	Someone to settle down with, a devoted, giving, kind, feminine person.
Kai	Short cut, black hair, feels like the countryside, interesting person.
53. Disliked type of woman
Ruki	That one. Worthless one.
Uruha	A bratty person.
Aoi	A tempremental person
Reita	A vulgar person
Kai	A girl who over-accessorizes
54. Your treasure?
Ruki	Band. Fans.
Uruha	My guitar.
Aoi	Band members and fans.
Reita	Fans
Kai	Band members
55. Your current worry
Ruki	My sofa bed is broken.
Uruha	I am trying to not to worry.
Aoi	Making music
Reita	I am trying not to have worries.
Kai	none
56. When you feel happy
Ruki	It's nice feeling the winter wind against me.
Uruha	When I'm in love.
Aoi	Lives
Reita	When I hear music; Lives
Kai	When I'm doing a Live
57. Number one place to relax
Ruki	Room.
Uruha	Countryside.
Aoi	Stage.
Reita	My house.
Kai	My room.
58. Disliked place
Ruki	Tour bus
Uruha	The city's crowds
Aoi	A place that looks like there are ghosts
Reita	Bad with appearing in public
Kai	Crowded places
59. Number one place in Japan you want to go
Ruki	A local area
Uruha	A dense forest area
Aoi	At the top of the scene
Reita	Yamaguchi prefecture
Kai	Okinawa
60. Number one overseas location you would like to go?
Ruki	London Nights
Uruha	New York
Aoi	Singapore
Reita	France, Italy
Kai	France
61. The person you want to meet most at present
Ruki	Dog that passed away
Uruha	Bob Sapp
Aoi	Local friends
Reita	My deceased grandfather
Kai	My first love
62. If you could change your birth, would you be born as a man or woman? (reason)
Ruki	Man!
Uruha	Man! Because I have no dissatisfactions being a man.
Aoi	Man! It's fun being a man after all.
Reita	I'd like to be a man. Because female relationships seem to be messed up.
Kai	Man! I want to be in a band again.
63. If you could have 3 wishes come true, what would you ask for?
Ruki	Give me money, give me love, fulfill my dream.
Uruha	Let me make my parents happy. I want to see the Northern Lights. I want Doraemon's pocket.
Aoi	Give me a Mac! I want to enjoy this time more! For everyone's happiness!
Reita	I want a notebook computer. I want everyone to know more about Gazette. I want to like vegetables.
Kai	Money, I want a Go-anywhere Door (also from Doraemon), I want to return to the past.
64. Worst mistake of your life
Ruki	Causing trouble for my parents
Uruha	License photograph
Aoi	Wasting time
Reita	Taking out a lot of loans.
Kai	None in particular...
65. The strangest dream you've seen to date
Ruki	I was almost killed by a cat.
Uruha	I was shot many times in that dream.
Aoi	I had a dream wherein 4 corpses floated up at the Nagoya port! On top of that the corpses were laughing.
Reita	I was the vocalist... or rather, I sang a twin vocal with Ruki... it was fun...
Kai	The dream where Reita was my mother.
66. Something you were happy to receive
Ruki	Wallet
Uruha	Accessories, clothes
Aoi	Clothes
Reita	Letters, cigarettes, joint letter I received for my birthday
Kai	Clothes, Zippo, accessories
67. What kind of part time jobs have you done?
Ruki	Denny's, Royal Host
Uruha	800 shop
Aoi	Convenience store and Wedding Hall
Reita	Bread shop, Snack shop
Kai	Restaurant, cleaning
68. What has been on your mind / worried you recently?
Ruki	What's still left for my room...
Uruha	North Korea
Aoi	Gazette hereafter
Reita	How long I will bandage my face.
Kai	The lack of Reita's nose.
69. How you spend your days off
Ruki	In my room doing nothing
Uruha	Doing nothing~ lazing around~
Aoi	Casually playing the guitar
Reita	Just to sleep... after that play games and such
Kai	Watch videos, making songs
70. Person you respect
Ruki	Parents
Uruha	Sugizo-san (Luna Sea's ex-guitarist)
Aoi	Parents
Reita	Takanori Hatakeyama (Japanese boxer)
Kai	Mother
71. Artiste you like right now
Ruki	King Giddra (they're a hip hop rap group consisting Zeebra, K Dub Shine, and DJ Oasis)
Uruha	King Giddra
Aoi	No one in particular
Reita	Rappa Gariya
Kai	Dir en grey, Hi-STANDARD
72. CD you like at the moment
Ruki	At the moment it's DJ Krash - Mirai
Uruha	Saishuuheiki
Aoi	Ayumi Hamasaki - I am
Reita	Gazette of course...
Kai	Marilyn Manson
73. Artist who influenced you
Ruki	LUNA SEA
Uruha	LUNA SEA
Aoi	Many
Reita	LUNA SEA
Kai	LUNA SEA
74. Artist you would like to have a session with?
Ruki	Korii
Uruha	Sugizo-san
Aoi	Metallica
Reita	Many...
Kai	Gackt
75. First record/CD purchased
Ruki	m.c.A.T's "Bomb A Head"
Uruha	B'z - Risky
Aoi	Odoru ponpokorin
Reita	Checker's "giza giza haato no komoriuta" (The Broken Hearted Lullaby)
Kai	Lindberg's "Motto aishi aimashou" (Let's Love and Meet More)
76. First live you went to
Ruki	X Japan
Uruha	Friend's live
Aoi	An event at Rokumeikan (live house in Meguro, Tokyo)
Reita	Hiroshi Itsuki (this guy's an enka singer)
Kai	SMAP! (laugh)
77. Live you want to go to right now
Ruki	none
Uruha	Gazette, because I can't watch
Aoi	Metallica's tour in November
Reita	MAD CAPSULE MARKETS
Kai	Marilyn Manson's live
78. First song you covered
Ruki	SEX PISTOLS - BODIES
Uruha	LUNA SEA - In My Dream
Aoi	X - Kurenai
Reita	LUNA SEA - PRECIOUS...
Kai	LUNA SEA - Jesus
79. The first time you performed in front of an audience (when/where)
Ruki	3rd year middle school at camp.
Uruha	3rd year middle school cultural festival.
Aoi	Around middle school in the local gym.
Reita	In my 2nd year of high school on Oct. 28th at a local live house.
Kai	1st year of middle school at my mom's piano recital.
80. A Live that left an impression? (when/where/reason)
Ruki	None yet. In the future.
Uruha	Area 2 days one-man! It was fun.
Aoi	September 6 Gazette Area One-Man. Until then I hadn't done any Lives that left an impression.
Reita	Area one-man! It was the first time I saw only Gazette fans.
Kai	July 22 Cheetah, It was my first live after leaving the hospital.
81. Out of your own songs, the one that you like the most
Ruki	Okuribi. Ito. Juunana Sai. I think these were good...
Uruha	Okuribi
Aoi	Wakaremichi
Reita	Ito
Kai	Haru ni chirikeri, mi wa kareru de gozaimas
82. Live house / hall you've thought about playing at?
Ruki	AREA
Uruha	AREA
Aoi	Takadanobaba Area
Reita	AREA
Kai	Urawa Narciss
83. What do you pay attention to in a piece of music?
Ruki	Don't go off key. Put emotion into it.
Uruha	When the sounds of five people are put together, is everything arranged well?
Aoi	The best environment for creativity
Reita	The unison of the drums
Kai	Rhythm keep
84. Fun things on Tour
Ruki	District laws
Uruha	Meeting Gazette fans from all over the country
Aoi	Meeting fans from all over the country
Reita	Food. Then the impressions of fans from various places.
Kai	Conversations inside the tour bus
85. Harsh things on Tour
Ruki	District laws
Uruha	Almost becoming homesick
Aoi	Travelling
Reita	No time to sleep. Driving...
Kai	Being sleepy
86. Things you pay attention to on Tour
Ruki	Local food. It doesn't mess up your stomach I guess...
Uruha	Not having accidents.
Aoi	Management of equipment
Reita	All my power all the time!!
Kai	Even if whichever place seems the same, having a fun live
87. Something you always do before a Live
Ruki	Smoke
Uruha	Warm up exercises, stretching
Aoi	Keep thinking "I'm the best!"
Reita	Stretch
Kai	Deep breaths
88. Something you always do after a Live
Ruki	Smoke
Uruha	Drink Cola, get a smoke
Aoi	Gargle
Reita	Down drinks
Kai	Smoke
89. How you relieve stress when overwhelmed
Ruki	Smoke
Uruha	Nothing but PlayStation
Aoi	Game
Reita	Knock out in the car
Kai	Game
90. A jinx (superstition) you believe in
Ruki	None
Uruha	The more modest a person is, the more people will be drawn to that person.
Aoi	Because I believe in myself, nothing in particular.
Reita	I only believe in myself.
Kai	None
91. When making music, what's your #1 outstanding point?
Ruki	I can show my will
Uruha	Expressing emotion
Aoi	Steady effort
Reita	How can I express that myself?
Kai	Being pleasant
92. Something fun about being in a band.
Ruki	The band is fun.
Uruha	Not having a destination point.
Aoi	Doing music.
Reita	Everything is fun .
Kai	Lives
93. Something tough about being in a band.
Ruki	Nothing.
Uruha	If you advance towards the goal, when you reach it, you feel it is still moving away.
Aoi	It's all over the place because of different living times.
Reita	My life is a big mess.
Kai	None
94. What is success to you
Ruki	Reaching my limit... then thinking about it..
Uruha	Burning out doing things I like! Persisting until the end.
Aoi	When I am accepted/recognised by people all around me.
Reita	Self-satisfaction.
Kai	When I can shine.
95. Message to the You at present
Ruki	Do your best!! If you do your best, you'll be okay!
Uruha	You are still a baby chick with a shell...
Aoi	If it's you, it can be done!
Reita	Can't you do better?
Kai	Try harder!
96. What would you say to yourself 10 years from now?
Ruki	You have grown, haven't you...
Uruha	Live as a person who doesn't kiss ass.
Aoi	Remember the old you!
Reita	How are you? Are you doing music?
Kai	Is it okay with many meanings? (laugh)
97. Message to each member
Ruki	Uruha, Reita, Aoi, Kai - You guys be happy.
Uruha	Ruki... we'll trust and follow you. Reita... Thank you always. Aoi... Together let's do our best. Kai... Nice mood maker!
Aoi	To all members - If there are five people it's okay! If it's us, it can be done!
Reita	Ruki... Sorry I'm always staying over. Aoi... "aki ga koyanshi" Uruha ... Onibaku ("demon bomber" this probably refers to Bomberman) Kai... Bento man
Kai	Ruki... Clothes please! Uruha... Don't stop telling lies! (laughs) Aoi... let me borrow game software. Reita... Let's continue to be friends from here!
98. Outlook from hereafter
Ruki	We'll take the world...
Uruha	Secret <3
Aoi	I can't say from here!
Reita	Let's grow with a bang!!
Kai	To carve the band's name into history.
99. Message to the fans
Ruki	Watch as we take the world... thank you
Uruha	Whenever, forever, believe and come along!
Aoi	Thanks for always supporting us!
Reita	Follow us, okay.
Kai	Isn't Gazette the best!?
100. What is Gazette to you?
Ruki	Dream.
Uruha	With our will, we made life's rails.
Aoi	The most awesome partner.
Reita	Youth.
Kai	Life!!

link of the site: http://gazette.viskorg.net/ it's been discontinued though...
link ,by the same person, to more translations of interview: http://community.livejournal.com/toraniya/

omg. found a gem. @ 18:17

鑑定結果
您的精神年齡27歲

與您實際年齡差13歲

幼稚度60％

成熟度43％

watashiwa namae wa... @ 02:15

if i were to describe life, i would say it's like a race, a stupid and tiring race. i am officially tired and wish to back out of this race. i was never an athletic person. i hate having to run for you life, to have to try to reach the end before others... what's the point of going at full speed all the time? at most you are admired by many, despised by some. does that make you feel happy? to be at the top? if i could choose, i would wish i was living in a laid back serene country side with nothing much to worry about. to take a stroll during the early mornings, have tea in the breezy afternoons and stroll again during the cool evening is pure bliss. singapore. it's too competitive for me, too fast-paced. to have to worry about paying bills, being at the top, finishing your tasks on time, it's stupid. really stupid. it's so stupid . and they say to not enjoy something is like locking yourself into a cell. i want to enjoy life like many others but just because you want to doesn't mean you can. i envy those, always surrounded by close friends, stretch out your hands and money is given to you to be spent anyway you like. WTF. yeah, many say life's unfair but this is just TOO UNFAIR. don't have money, don't have friends, don't have looks, don't have talent, don't have brains, don't have family. it's painful. but who cares. no one because there are too many other people in similar situantions i guess. nevermind. you happy bastards would never understand the depths of my mind.

WTFWTFWTF. THE ANTS ARE ATTACKING MY TABLE AGAIN. ARGHHH...~


trash i bought today.
a pair of miniature handcuffs: $2
trinity blood key chain set: $1 [original price $9.90, clearance mah then i greedy go buy. in the end it's sticky, EWWW~]
NaNa knuckle duster: $3 [a bit tight for mee huge knuckles due to over-cracking them TTATT i should've listened to my mama in the past and not crack them. now they're the size of elephants~]

my JAPANESE CURRT RiCE~ this is as close to japan as i can get TTATT. bought by my dearest meimei~



my guide cookies MiNT FLAVOURR~ only left so much now TTATT

WTF is life about? @ 01:19

MY ACHiEVMENT @ 18:55

relationships are a pain. i wish i never had any because once you have it you worry constantly about being betrayed and abandoned. WTF issit with *******. my loyalty is returned rejection. damnit. it's best to stick to yourself because you can only trust yourself to stay loyal and true to you. HiDE MEMORiAL SUMMiT~ i wish i could've gone. it's such a pity Hide sama left this world. though i only knew of him after his departure i must say i admire him very much. he was a talented musician. btw: i notice most musicians of many SUPERbands are well versed in many instruments. Yoshiki can play the piano, drums and guitar, Gackt can play the guitar, piano, drums so on so on and can sing. i'm sure there are many other talented artists out there which i have not named.

stupid ET. scolding us for a not good enough reason is just... is just STUPiD. try that again and i'm gonna BLOW in front of you~ btw: what do you mean by you realise i've been smiling/laughing to myself during class like there's some 'internal' joke. it's really because i thought of something funny like how i see ah meng stand up and i feel like pulling his chair, like how some people say something stupid and i have a really smart response which probably i'll be hated even more if i said it out loud. sigh... mdm zhong exposed me. maybe i was a bit nervous. thats why i was shaking during the oral? =='' okay. maybe a bit... if only english oral they had only one table too then maybe that HECK OF A SHiT could've heard me better.

damn. i do wrong thing, you beat me. i never do wrong thing, you also beat me. what do you want me to do? WTF?! DiE? if so, SAY iT TO MY FACE. i don't like going in circles...

@ 16:46

once again~ i relived Malice Mizer. one of my all time favourite classic visual kei band. Mana sama~ i wish i could hold you in my arms and never let you go... i just watched finished the concert... yesterday i watched the movie. sigh... i MUST HAVE HiM~ *nosebleed* this man is just LUVULUVU~~!!! think of him in the day and dream of him in the night, and i'm not exaggerating.
OMGOMGOMG~ I JUST HEARD: 'THERE'S NO [I] IN TEAMWORK' in the sitcom First Class and we just talked about it today during CME lesson. lols. maybe ET predicted the show... ooh.

Malice mizer - bara ni irodorareta akui higeki no muakuake @ 20:26

after a stressful WHOLE day, finally i can breathe for just this lil' bitty bitbit. hmm... maths. couldn't do the last part. the drawing of lines and stuff. so in the end i couldn't do the entire question. hopefully i get all the other questions right and is able to pass. chinese. oh no, not too good. quite confusing and i realised i couldn't read a lot of words... maybe i'll have to drop higher mother tongue soon... sad but no other choice. oral... was simpler than i thought but i got stuck at many parts and had to be questioned by mr lim many times before could move on. he's way nicer than that bitch face arsehole who took me for english oral. mr lim can hear me why can't she. who ask her so stupid go put 2 tables between us. then must be never dig ear also... ewww~ dunwanna think about it. still i'm not too confident about getting FLYING colours for my oral.

phew~ @ 17:30

that bernice~ i wanna her blogskin~!! so nice~ and then there was this famous 'we will exact revenge for you' or something. aww~ i wanna that! damn. and i'm supposed to be revising for tomorrow's exams... maths test, chinese test, chinese oral... DAMN! U WANNA ME TO DIE JUS SAY IT IN MY FACE... TT^TT. i'm stressed beyond words. HA! like hell. i don't give a damn about all this actually. they say it's really all for our own future and yet they control it like their's. i'm getting tired of life. life is bothersome, tiresome and filled with too many obligations... i forgot to post my song~ yays! new song by (un)reknowned music composer pauliine (me!)~.

here goes:
yellow and green~
blue and pink~~~

FANG GE CHOU Pi
CHOU SI(name)
EVERYBODY HAPPY
EVERYBODDYY HAPPY~~

catchy? no then nevermind. you just don't know how to appreciate good music. okays. and now i am struggling to absorb all that crap into my puny little brain... DAMN! WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME~!!? for the 2nd time i missed ethe'Real's perfomance~ i overslept and now i missed the results. I DESERVE TO DIE. TT^TT i still dare to call myself a loyal supporter... shame on me. then last week saturday i didn't go to J8 to support them as promised. I'M SORRY KENN SENPAI~ I'M SORRY ETHE'REAL~ *kowtowkowtow*

darn it~ @ 00:54