why am i always being left behind? always, be it in school or at home, i am always left behind. is it because they did not realise my presence, did not realise my longing to be with them or they were trying to block me out of their seemingly perfect lives. in school, i always see them laughing away heartily and i envy them and wish to join in but i am afraid to reach out and ask, afraid to be rejected and humiliated. at home, they are always going out for family outings, am i not part of this family? after i try my best to tidy the house and be the perfect daughter, am i not welcomed to come along? they never thought about me, about how lonely i would feel home alone... and they say i spend too much time on the computer. what am i to do? no one else cares about me enough to listen to me.@ 17:58